Spoil me

second this lol

I’ve been kinda skimming the chapters and I’ve gone through about 3 sex scenes with these two without seeing anything significant that reveals who Shushu is. He went to school with MC and the other guy, but that’s all the MC really gleans. Honestly, it barely matters after that particular exhibit is finished. Kun/Liu/Lau Weikun/man of a thousand names becomes totally obsessed with our MC.

Hot take: the novel is RIFE with poetic introspection to the point of being seriously irritating to read. I’m being so fr.

The MC says, and I paraphrase quite accurately:
“I mean, it’s whatever that he’s like that. It’s honestly not like I care and it would be crazy if I did care because I don’t care about much. So interestingly it seems I have these totally mechanical reactions—like tears and frustration and horniness—that are a bit bothersome. Well they would be bothersome if I was bothered, which I’m not because it would be silly to think I’d be bothered by things I’ve never in my 22 years of life been bothered by. Like, he may be 10 years older or whatever but that doesn’t bother me either even though it bothers some people. Not that there’s anything going on because there isn’t and I don’t necessarily want anything to happen because it would be silly of me to want that since it’s obviously a pipe dream of anyone (not me because I don’t care) to think HE would lower himself to like a beta. Oh weird, did I just harbor thoughts of a golden alpha being attracted to a beta? That’s ridiculous. So I’ll just keep working and what not because I need to figure out how to live my life and move forward and stop being a burden on my cousin and his girlfriend—even though they keep inviting me over and I like them—and also stop expecting anything from Mr Liu. Not that I do expect anything but it might seem like I do from an outside perspective so I should just stay in my lane. Well I would if he wouldn’t keep doing such out-of-character-from-the-first-impression-only things. But maybe I’m just imagining it. Probably imagining that he’s interested in me. How odd that such thoughts should come from my brain. I should quickly bury those lest they manifest and create a hope which I cannot afford myself to feel because I doubt I’ll feel it anyway and it’s useless to expect anything ever—especially from Mr. Liu who has obviously always disliked me since the first day except for every day after and confuses me by having a change of heart which I refuse to believe has changed at all.”

I’m excited for the scenes that move the plot forward and I see that this artist is summing up what I discussed in single bubbles and scenes that truly didn’t need the weight of a thousand words (MC doesn’t smoke, tried it, ML was takes pictures of him, MC doesn’t smoke again until later), so I think she’ll successfully get us to the good stuff pretty quickly. I’m so glad she’s not including all of his internal dialogue because I would die and it would take away from this magnificent art.

Shushu is ML childhood friend. They've never been more than friends nor have had any feelings other than that of best friends.
It's just that ML is very protective of him cause Shushu is a shy, sheltered and anxious little diva (I'm sorry, I don't like Shushu very much ).