I think it's because he's your first love and at the back of your mind he'll always be there but there with come a time when you get completely over him and you jus need to be patient with yourself, you've loved him for a long time and he was your first love so it'll take a long time before you get him out of your system. Stay strong, I'm proud of you, you're doing great!
You’ll always have a part of you that loves him and it’s okay. Learn to manage it and distract yourself by looking for new opportunities. Honestly I’m going through the same thing in a way it’s been a couple years and a part of me will always love him and that’s okay. :)
Ok so he was my first love, he was also my childhood crush for 5 years. I dated him in the summer, felt like I was in a lovestory manhwa. we took each others firsts but I had to fly back to the country im currently living in. We broke up because we couldn't make distance work... we told each other we'd try again in the future. Its been 4 years, he has a new long term gf and ive moved on like 3 times... like for months I forget he exists, but when I remember him and everything, I just start to reminisce. I was dealing with a break up from this other dude, then all of sudden all my frustrations and feelings went back to my first love... I dont know if i'll ever get rid of this bitter feeling. I genuinely don't want him back, its better this way. I've already accepted that there is no future for us. The past just haunts me so much, I like to see him happy ofc but its just so annoying to see, because it couldve been with me. Its like im fighting myself whenever I ask myself if i'm over him... Yeah idk why im posting this in here.. I ghosted my therapist... and she went on vacation so I dont see her till 4 months later.. Now I stalk both of my exes.. I dont even know whats my life at this point xd Am I going to be thinking of him 10 years later? What if i'm married and I still think about him?