
just know it is a circle, that all it is. Jinha didn't tell him everything about the ex, but Siwon is too busy with himself to ever care about Jinha feelings or warning. so he take all the blame on Jinha, like he always does. so you didn't miss anything, it just a long circle that will repat itsulf a lot ╮( ̄▽ ̄)╭

Kang jinha didn't really do anything. Siwon just couldn't handle the situation he is in and so he's taking it out on Kang. How I understand it, Siwon is saying that he's life wouldn't have been this way if he hadn't dated or met Kang again. Honestly, I don't even think siwon ever like Kang, at this point.
Wait, what did kang Jinha do to siwon again, I forgot. Now I'm confused about everything now. and why doesn't siwon trust Kang jinha, like Kang Jinha has treated him so nicely and loves him so much. One more thing, I thought Siwon concluded his feelings for Kang Jinha already. Like the time where Siwon dreamed about Kang Jinha getting stabbed by this psycho and Siwon gets worried and all. Ahhhh, I really don't want to re-read everything again, but I'm confused