
I love her but I don't want to. I was a child when I told her that :C and didn't think too deeply about stuff "I know you hurt me in a lot of ways, verbally and physically, but you have to have a reason to do so and I think it's my fault (child always thinks it's his/her fault), and I love you mom, because even if you don't support me in any way you are my mother" :'( sigh. I really don't want to love her and don't want to have anything to with her but this emotion is still there.

U do not HAVE to love someone, it is a choice u make... even family members can hate eachother, i should know that. But yes, ofcourse, you will always be greatful to someone who brought u into this world, unconditionally, and things wont always go right, missunderstandings, arguments and fights can and will happen. But my concern is that you are saying that you don’t want to love her and don’t want to have anything to do with her, But STILL have that emotion..?
Well, deep down i think you do still love your mother, and want to be loved by her aswell.
But remember
To force love isnt always good either. Sometimes it hurts even more.
It should come naturally!
People should be loved because of How they are as a person, not their standard or title, just saying. It isnt a MUST to love, it is a choice.
I do not know what you have been through with your mother, but if you truly feel that way you should speak to her about it. Confronting is not always the easiest, but sometimes it is for the best.
May good come your way and i’m sorry to hear about this!
(Ps i love this manwha and find it relatable too!)

you dont technically have to love your mom even though she gave birth to you. you could appreciate or be grateful that she gave birth to you, but you dont have to love her, especially if she treated you like shit. just because they done something for you, doesnt mean they deserve your love, but everyone is different i guess.
I cried so much when my boyfriend told me he loves me.. and I cried even more when I told him that.. never said it to anyone except my mother - whom I hate so much. Sooha is so relatable.. yes, I cried during this chapter ;-; Their relationship is so emotional and deep ;----; I love this manga