I've looked at the raws, so unfortunately know how it ends for Oscar, but I really don't get Eduardo's deal at this point. Maybe when the dialogue is made clear, he will talk more about his time with Oscar. But at the moment, his reasons for not wanting to commit after so long just seem a bit selfish. It seems like Eduardo is content with having his person for hook ups whenever he is in town, but is missing out on forming any sort of stable or meaningful relationship, whereas Oscar was obviously more emotionally invested. It seems maybe Lily was the first person who put Oscar first and was genuinely affectionate towards him.
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I like that we're both postponing judgement on Eduardo. We truly don't know what he is thinking... Maybe Eduardo does have feelings for Oscar these past eight years, but he prioritizes his career over Oscar because he’s a workaholic?? We don't know how many more years Eduardo wants to build cars or be part of the racing world in general. Right now, Oscar doesn't have plans beyond racing too. (My idealistic heart wants Eduardo's intention to be him wanting to work so much, so he could have enough money for early retirement and live with Oscar. (〜￣△￣)〜)
That champagne bathtub scene (LILY EVEN ADDED WHITE PETALS!! WHERE COULD I FIND A MAN LIKE HIM? ε=ε=(ノ≧∇≦)ノ ) especially highlighted how affectionate Lily is and just how content Oscar was... We haven't seen Eduardo prepare surprises for Oscar the way Lily did this chapter. </3 Maybe Eduardo isn't an ideal lover because he's not affectionate or just not romantic... :/ It bothers me that Eduardo could just come back to Oscar and have sex like nothing happened; Eduardo doesn't seem to want to improve on his behaviour. Why? I think Eduardo isn't scared of losing Oscar at all.
I am ready if Oscar seriously considers Lily. Lily has shown that he's not just a fun lover in bed. Σ( ￣□￣||) (Lily's champagne bathtub won me over too LOL!!) That spontaneity Lily possesses is so charming; I love that Lily just follows his heart and does what he enjoys. It may appear to be a losing battle on Lily's end, since Oscar is still with Eduardo, but I appreciate that relationship statuses don’t stop Lily from loving Oscar. :)) Love truly does include giving without expecting in return...
I've been feeling so conflicted about Eduardo, Oscar, and Lily... But my heart MELTED at Lily's champagne bathtub. Oscar looked so at peace and HAPPY to be in that bathtub with Lily and Lily only did it because he wanted Oscar to be happy!! ;-----; I'm so touched by Lily's love and I'm so happy for Oscar to be loved by someone so respectfully and sincerely. <33 I love it when people live in the moment. :')) The champagne bathtub was the best congratulations gift Oscar could ever receive in all the years of his career. Even though Lily is still in an unrequited relationship, I'm just happy that champagne bathtub scene exists and gave Oscar and Lily happiness *___* I would be SO happy if I had a lover who treated me like that (⌒▽⌒) + I love that Lily gave a simple reason to celebrate and be happy; that they got through another day safe and sound :))
Also, that sex scene at the beginning of the chapter... It's a flashback, but when did it happen? That time when Oscar and Lily were arguing and Callo told them to get a room LOL?? Was Oscar the one who asked Lily to push ahead, so they could be together? Was that supposed to increase Oscar's likelihood of winning? Sorry, I don't know how racing works ._____.