HELP

Joowon is a gentle person, he was just very understanding to heesoo feelings. In fact, when a person say "I want you to just keep wanting the me alone", it will make you happy. But heesoo said it in negative way, that made jowoon to do some complicated response to his words. Same reason why I find jowoon saying " you cant live without me", because heesoo keep wanting him alone. So leaning to the other guy is bad idea, but since taku shows that he really want heesoo without any doubt and hesitation , heesoo finds taku side comforting, more like this is heesoo wants from jowoon. So if I'm heesoo, it's better to stop being scared and tell his real feelings to jowoon that he love him instead of saying he hates him before he mess everything up by involving taku. If you love someone, you wont hate them from loving them, but you will be thankful that you face each other feelings and fight every walls the two if you need to break. Hehe

I disagree with pretty much most of this especially after I read chapter 39

I see, I cant read korean. But while reading it until chapter 37, I just can relate because the pain heesoo felt is the same thing to the person I had loved before.

Okay, let say you love someone and you also want him to love you but because your afraid of your mother and it shows to your face that you hate hurting your mom and afraid of what people will have to tell you, and me who loves you dont want to see that , of course the me will not force you but let you do whatever you like for as long as your their when I look for you. I mean, the hell I'll let my lover sleep with anyone and I will still wait for him. I mean, jowoon you love heesoo too much. And fuck that because now you look a bad guy because some guy shows up and saying does that hyung can do this? , of course, no! Because we cant, it wrong. And the me, why love is difficult to have. It hurts , that you just going to be used of pain. But when time strikes you'll realize , I really love him and I dont know anymore

Have you and I been reading the same manhwa?

- Just how did you come to the conclusion that Joowon is gentle?
- Lmao. He was very understanding to Haesoo's feelings? HOW?!
- Joowon words, 'You are the one who can't live without me'. Do they sound kind and gentle to you? It undoubtedly sounds as if he is mocking and laughing at Haesoo. He is looking down on him.
- why is it a bad idea for wanting a healthy relationship? Joowon is toxic AF.
- omg. I can't be live what I am reading I am actually furious. I think you need some help. I am concerned for you. Is it bad that someone is truthful and upfront about liking you? Joowon is the opposite and it is the reason why Haesoo is hurting and the reason for his anxiety!
- Everthing is already a mess with Joowon's toxicity. If anything, Taku is Haesoo's fresh breathe of air. O.o#
- And saying I Love you at this point won't change anything.

Please tell me you are a 12 year old, then all of what you have said would make sense.

Cath, sometimes people feel genuine affection but express it in the wrong way. Sometimes people feel love but it's a self servingg love. It doesn't mean the people you're loving won't or shouldn't be hurt by it. I have no doubt that jowoon BECAME the dirtbag he is now and hasn't always been like this, but I will NOT use that as an excuse for it. Nor should haesoo, Jowoon is just a toxic presence in his life and he should look out for himself. You know relationships like this never work out because they're built on the lack of something you shouldn't look in others. Jowoon is hollow and flawed and has used Haesoo as a way to fill up what he's missing, but wheter it had to be Haesoo or he just happened to be the person he latched onto is not clear. To some extent Haesoo did the same, except he always wanted more and was so aware of how much he didn't like the current situation. I can relate to this, I just want some sweet release and peace with taku. A healing story.

Exactly, it was a toxic relationship. So why he would still look for heesoo when he is an actor that can have which ever he like. Why until now, we would only have sex to him. Why heesoo keep blaming everything to jowoon, you keep looking to the other beautiful things like candy when the candy is only ordinary. You cant see the good side because your too overwhelm by the sweet taste of an ordinary candy. Im not against taku, It unrelated to be mad because I know he's taking a liking to heesoo like a child that would do everything to have what he wants just like loving someone. But loving is like giving everything you have to make them happy, and this is heesoo mistake because he cant afford to lose. I keep coming back to heesoo thoughts from chapter 1, saying his cynical because he was very scared of dissapointment. So I conclude, heesoo is the real mistake. His so unreasonable that I cant seem to like him sleeping to anyone by blaming it to jowoon. Someone say, if you love someone just love them dont own them. But look , uke why made your self a slut. And then saying jowoon manipulate you when he has the right to be mad because he loves you. So now tell me would you let your lover sleep with anyone? ,mocking? I will do the same. Because I cant seem to accept someone seeing my lover being a mess in bed and started kissing him when I should only be the one kissing him. I dont know how you see it guys, but for me it was heesoo mistake. Look keep coming back to their history, because the now is the result of their past. So I dont really care who he would end up, I just dont want jowoon and taku get hurt because of one person.

you're missing the point. I DON'T CARE if jowoon is in love. Haesoo shouldn't care either. jowoon is toxic for him, he doesn't HAVE TO suck it up just because jowoon got issues. No one cares about the reason once it gets exhausting, and let me tell ya, no one owes him anything. It's about time Haesoo gets that and severs the tie with him. I literally not once gave a shit about jowoon's side and I will not start now, because no matter how damaged you are, hurting other people to cope with it is NOT ok. And no one is obligated to put up with anything like this, who gives a shit if deep down there's actual feelings or not. Think about haesoo and how unhappy he is, it makes no difference for him.