I feel depressed lately

i have new colleague friends lately. In conclusion i really hate hang out with them. Some woman who always laughing with her own jokes, and maybe she hates me because i never laugh with them. And the boys who always force me to hang out with them until 12-1am. Its crazy life...
I love wasting my life alone then spending time with them. Maybe they think im lonely and pitiful so they think i need extra attention from them?
I hope i can ignore them more and do each other’s work.
But because we living in big house i cant do that, only when im locking my own room im feeling safe, comfortable and quiet.
And the next morning its repeat again...ughhh i want to barf seriously, how can they always laughing while speaking...its not FUNNYYY, for me their behavior look like a teenager even though they are already >25 years old

I know its not good to talk bad about friends who is good to you, but seriously The depression feeling hit me hard this time
Im never feeling like this before with my old friends, because when im talking/ playing with them im a cheerful and funny person.
Im living in new city with different culture and speaking style, so maybe because i got a new environment i got a bit “HomeSick”

For you who have a true friends with same Hobby (reading Yaoi), ur life have been blessed~ I hope i found it too in real life soon~
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