His personality is so fragmented that ppl thought there were different hims. When he was sick he was open to suggestion and he kind of fell into it. But as he got a bit better he realized it wasn’t DID. The fcked up thing is they finally got a diagnosis that fit him then the MSM got rid of it. It was Personality Disorder NOS. It meant he could exhibit all the personality disorders at different times. Under different stressors. He used to tell me he felt faceted. I just knew when tigger Bryan (my nicknames) was around everything was fun and he’d take me to the playground at night. Sweet Bryan wanted me to wrap him up in my arms and legs in “Zoey hugs” even though normally outside of sex he hated being touched. Then there was sour Bryan who manipulated me and toyed with me. Picking at my insecurities. Then evil Bryan who would actually hurt me, mentally, physically. But mostly mentally bc he couldn’t be the victim of whatever I’d done to him if I had a black eye. Those were like his mane facets. All him just each side of his personality was so distinct. He got raped as a kid and lacked proper attachment with his parents so he was a mess. I thought he was a beautiful, facinatimg mess though. I only left him bc we had a baby. But it was best for him bc I always forgave him for everything and felt like I had to prove I would stay no matter what. I had promised unconditional love. I couldn’t subject my baby to seeing her mom get beat down like that. But he’s actually really come around. I tHought he wouldn’t especially since after we broke up he got hooked on heroin. But sometimes I’m blown away of how considerate he is of me now. I think his gf helps. She’s a mess too but they don’t bring out the worst in each other. They are just alike enough they can exist together. (Not that I wasn’t a mess, I was a total shitshow for awhile.) But yeah he’s pretty stable now. Evenkeeled. Pot helps a lot.
His personality is so fragmented that ppl thought there were different hims. When he was sick he was open to suggestion and he kind of fell into it. But as he got a bit better he realized it wasn’t DID. The fcked up thing is they finally got a diagnosis that fit him then the MSM got rid of it. It was Personality Disorder NOS. It meant he could exhibit all the personality disorders at different times. Under different stressors. He used to tell me he felt faceted. I just knew when tigger Bryan (my nicknames) was around everything was fun and he’d take me to the playground at night. Sweet Bryan wanted me to wrap him up in my arms and legs in “Zoey hugs” even though normally outside of sex he hated being touched. Then there was sour Bryan who manipulated me and toyed with me. Picking at my insecurities. Then evil Bryan who would actually hurt me, mentally, physically. But mostly mentally bc he couldn’t be the victim of whatever I’d done to him if I had a black eye. Those were like his mane facets. All him just each side of his personality was so distinct. He got raped as a kid and lacked proper attachment with his parents so he was a mess. I thought he was a beautiful, facinatimg mess though. I only left him bc we had a baby. But it was best for him bc I always forgave him for everything and felt like I had to prove I would stay no matter what. I had promised unconditional love. I couldn’t subject my baby to seeing her mom get beat down like that. But he’s actually really come around. I tHought he wouldn’t especially since after we broke up he got hooked on heroin. But sometimes I’m blown away of how considerate he is of me now. I think his gf helps. She’s a mess too but they don’t bring out the worst in each other. They are just alike enough they can exist together. (Not that I wasn’t a mess, I was a total shitshow for awhile.) But yeah he’s pretty stable now. Evenkeeled. Pot helps a lot.