Sure is. I also really feel bad for Jihyun. It made me tear up but I feel even more bad for Chiwoo. What Jihyun did was really wrong and I know he does things like that because of how wrong he grew up. The thing that really break my heart was because he forced to do it with Chiwoo which actually made Chiwoo had a severe trauma. Aussult and it could also be call rape 'cause the other party was against it, it gone way too far. I really understand why Chiwoo is suffering and hated him. Even if this is fiction, the story is just fiction-- this hurts a lot in real life especially those who exprience assault and rpe 'cause of obssession/love (not evn sure if I can call it love) wether it happened to a girl or a boy, we all know lots of people experience this situations and I just hope that wouldn't lead them to suicide. I just feel like the author really did a good job.
Maybe I got used to r*pe in yaoi lol thats why I overlooked Jihyun's action. And its good that the author did not tolerate such and made the better pairing. Maybe I just needed more feelings development for Kyujin and Chiwoo, Im so foolish to say this lol I really liked the story tho, it moved me and I cant get over it until now.
Its clear in the story that Kyujin was attracted to Chiwoo but, while reading it appears to me that Chiwoo only considers Kyujin as a friend and side character (this is purely my opinion) I honestly though that this story was JihyunxChiwoo and the rape scene was one of their relationship hurdle, and that they are going to get through it at the end. The story showed more on Jihuyn like how Jihyun and Chiwoo was before and then Jihyun came back looking for Chiwoo again, and those that happened in their school trip like on the bus Chowoo was leaning towards Jihyun and when the three of the slept together and Jihyun told Chiwoo that I love you, I though there would be a twist here, that it will be revealed in future that Chiwoo was awake during this time and will be part of their reconciliation (lol my imagination is crazy hahaha) and their scene at the hospital, im really tearing up for both of them at that time.. Im so sad on how it turned up for them and I can't even blame Chiwoo cuz the author really done a good job in showing how Jihyun's assault affected Chiwoo... that is why I was also amazed that he was able still stood with Jihyun when he was being criminally charged, I thought there was something on this.
But I think I will be able to move on now hahaha but maybe if the story also took time to show how Chiwoo's feelings developed for Kyujin mabe I'll ship them more? they only had friendly date once though towards the end Kyujin stayed more with Chiwoo when he was hospitalized. I think that he has calculative approach towards Chiwoo like when he tutored him and didn't invite his other friends over during Chiwoo's recovery and boom they got together at the end. And I honestly was brothered when Chiwoo said Kyujin reminds him of Jiyun "before". lols anyways these are all my opinion. Butttt this story, i think its amazing this is the first time I got bothered and want to explain by opinion haahhah.
Though thanks for replying, yes KxC wins. Have a great day ahead. :))
Sorry I didn't bother to read your whole comment. We're in two different worlds, after I read that you are used to rpe yaoi's, I don't want to say anything anymore HAHAHA our opinions don't click. People here still weird me out because of their preference but I still love BL but yaoi-- I'm still trying to understand it. I am very sensitive to genres like this especially it would be too bad if this is actually smut yaoi because I also has a trauma regarding sexual harassment so please understand :> HAHAHA but maybe, I hope I could one day overcome my fear and could be able to read yaoi too, 'cause I really want to but as I said it scares me especially if I pick the wrong genre of yaoi but it's not really new to me I have read some yaois too, It's sweet ans hot. I'm just being wary. Thankyou for sharing your opinion. Sorry for the trouble hehe.
Im so sorry to hear that.
Yes its ok not to read it all, lol.
Anyway keep fighting over your trauma, dont let it stop you in doing what you think matters to you. If in the future you doubt of doing something because of it, do it anyway.. I know its easier said than done but keep fighting!!!
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I feel so bad for Jihyun like f*ck.
Im crying.
I know what he did was bad, unforgivable.. but I can't help feeling sorry for him.. I really think that he has been so patient with Chiwoo considering he was not properly guided at home and was being beaten by his father thus became unproper person. Unlike Kyujin that was properly brought up in warm family.
He liked Chiwoo for 6 yrs and he messed it up in the end. Unlike Kyujin who only knew him for one school year.
Im so sad when Jihyun said he only had Chiwoo and he needs him but he messed it up and now Chiwoo left him.
And I cant get over the fact that Chiwoo accepted Kyujin that easily I thought he was just a little bit confused with his feelings for Jihyun considering Chiwoo said that he reminds him of their better days... well maybe he really loved Kyujin in the first place considering he accepted his persistence and became together at the end.
I just though that Jihyun and Chiwoo had deeper relationship, but I guess not.
People change tho I hope Jihyun can find his own happiness too. I belive he also deserve to prove himself and have other chance.