Do you work? Can you work? Post school, if you don’t go to uni or a cc usually you befriend coworkers. If your mom’s views are bordering abusive, save to move out. Don’t settle in min wage jobs if possible. Aim to work up tof management or constantly keep moving to work with better pay or opportunities.
Do what you need to do to remove yourself from the environment that is hurting you (that includes the reputation shit).
Why do you only have one bra? Is the size you need something that needs to be specialty ordered or hard to come by (I know bras can get pricey when you cant buy off the rack). If it upsets you, find a way to get a new one.
And if you’re bored with life, I’m sorry. 90% of life is escapism. You shouldn’t feel ashamed But motivated to do what you need to improve your situation.
Im sorry you’re going through so much, but when you have a little direction and put in effort it gets better
Ok just take a long breath *breath in* *breath out*
I might not know how difficult you life rn just don't lose hope
always keep in mind that they always be a rain before rainbowヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉ~
I know if tough to have many friends because me too, don't really have any friend but you know you don't need a friend that just for benefit and will backstab by the time you lose your use ヽ(`Д´)ﾉ
On the part of your mom probably your mom think your life rn is "nice" because she doesn't know anything about you and probably you mom also experiencing a problem that she too, find too difficult to solve, we never know cuz my mom is like that but when she try to open for me, I can't say anything cuz she have problem in money cuz my dad have many maintenance and brother just don't want to work and she was told by my auntie that she useless worthless because she don't have job to buy maintenance and then her mom so my grandma died and more （TДT)
So probably the word nice she means is when she was younger with less responsibility ( T﹏T )
It term of bullying try to open up to your mom or if you don't want try to gather all your courage and try to confront not like " why youre always bullying me" cuz I swear I tried and result is a crap
Try to like if it about being fat says "oh look whose talking, you're not sexy you're just thin that all" something like that if you can't try to avoid just teachers is a no no cuz some teacher just don't care then put the blame to you to put end of it ,
this is what happened to me
And you know the best revenge for all the ppl belittle you is being success
On the part of your things l, try to think a way to be to have a money without relying to your mom like online job
On the part abt your future, anything that will happen in the future can be change, it is unpredictable, it your choice to live a life like that or just choose the things that make you happy(⌒▽⌒)
I know all of this may not apply to your situation but just find a one reason to keep going(⌒▽⌒)
Just find that friend that will stick to you not because she have use of you but because you will always there for him and him there for you(⌒▽⌒)
On the teachers part, yah Im very disappointed to how they act these days cuz my mom always told me their teacher is so rightous and industrious that why probably when I talk to older people like 40s I feel like a dimbwit (〜￣△￣)〜
On term of bullying I tried to tell to my adviser and guess what she say
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"You're just being sensitive and you're making things up due to family problem" (︶︿︶)＝凸
Then another teacher of mine humiliated me in front of the class ヽ(`Д´)ﾉ
This may one of the reason why I'm so mad ヽ(`Д´)ﾉ and tremautized to teacher （TДT)
Like I always feel so dizzy, everything goes circle and can't keep standing whenever talking to teacher alone
Cuz there are a lot worse experience I have on teacher and bullying cuz I've been victim since second grade after we moved on another town
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Guys i fucking cant anymore even tho im so fucking done with this i have no choice but to keep living like this i constantly live in my fantasy its my comfortzone but everytime i have to think about myself in reality i just want to cry i keep scrolling through youtuve instagram and google and live my life through ppl but irl im in my room with no friends,family and my mom has changed she was always very religious including me but she became INCREDIBLY religious like she tells me i should come more out of my room and hang out with her but everytime i do that she keeps watching the world ending and bible stories and constantly tells me not to interupt her and ik never doing anything good enough for her and i cant eat delicious food i only have one bra that i have kept wearing for 2 years and she constantly tells me how “nice” my life is, i got bullied at school so i couldnt befriend ppl since my reputation went down the drain and now that im done with school idk what to do with my life idk where i see myself in the future other than go to work and eat but im very miserable and lonely and idk man the boredom is too much this feels like torture