i think he said moonhyuk is his first love because he was attracted at how much moonhyuk wants to live back when he was boxing illegally. like his eyes full of determination or some shit. it's more like he's attracted to him and wanna have him as a his dog, not as a lover? idk how to explain this
his mother said to him to be like his father. yeonjin loves his mother so he tried to copy everything. but he also hated his father. so he fucked men because he knows his father is gonna be disappointed in him. he basically is doing what his mother wants, by being like his father including fucking men, and doing what he wants by disappointing his father, by fucking men
okay but isn’t yeonjin doing all this 1) he said moonhyuck was his ‘first love’ and 2) in order to take down his dad? he even said he’d leave people ‘hints’ about what he was doing w moonhyuck or did i read it wrong?
also i wouldn’t really say that he’s cheating to his wife, because it was expressed that there’s not that kind of love in their marriage, it’s for convenience. and yeonjin does seem to have some kind of trauma, so it’s sad that people are just watering him down to a ‘promiscuous bottom’