PLS MAKE THIS THE ENDING UGHH

this is the ending i want for this manga since its trash now..

basically he keeps suffering from these dreams of her killing him and sends assassins to her secretly but shes strong so she continues to stay in the palace, also she loves him and has a sliver of hope that he will finally remember her. one day, he is so sick of it that he personally goes to kill her. he pretends to be nice to her and she runs to him happily, thinking he got his memories back. she hugs him, but then he stabs her with a dagger he was hiding. she falls to her knees, and right as she does he gets all of his memories back, when he loved her and cared for her. she caresses his cheek, "why..?" a tear streams down her cheek as she breaths her last, collapsing into his arms. he forgets to breathe and silently stares at what he has just done. once he realizes what he did, he starts shaking her shoulders in an attempt to wake her up. "no, no.. wake up.. hey, wake up.." warm tears stream down his cheeks and onto her face and he caresses her tired face. 'i did this to her... i, i got a new concubine.. and i sent her those assassins.. and now i, killed her with my own hands..' he stands up silently with an unreadable expression, carrying her in his arms to his chamber. "ah, your majesty!" it's that concubine. she runs up to him, and once she sees what he was carrying, a large smile forms on her face. "haha! you finally got rid of her! thank you, your majesty." she says while sneakily sliding her arm in between his arm to cross them. then suddenly, his anger explodes and grabs her frail neck, slamming her into the wall. "HOW DARE YOU, YOU LOWLY BITCH!" he yells as he squeezes. she struggles and scratches his arm, but she is powerless. just before she dies, he lets go of her and walks away from her and to the chamber. once he's alone with her who is no longer alive, he gently lays her on his bed which he used to make love with her dearly. he stares at her for a moment, then starts crying hysterically. he thinks back on their first encounter, then the time she asked to team up, then the time she made up a genius plan for revenge and looked up at him with a bright smile, then the time they first made love to each other. and now.. the time he killed her. he looks at her, which is only now a body that was turning cold by the second. 'i.. i'm never going to see her smile again, aren't i? that is worse than death. yes, i deserve to die.' he takes the dagger out of her stomach which made a squelching sound and he flinched. he points the dagger at his chest. 'at least when i die, our blood will be mixed together. if god grants me another life, i hope i can see you again.' one last painful tear streams down his wet cheeks and he plunges the knife into his chest. he sees his vision blurring. 'this is how you must've felt.. how alone you must've been..' and he collapses onto her, hugging her dearly.

god did grant them another life. after all, they both died unfairly. but in this life, god also put down a curse on li jian since he was not innocent. he will have the memories of both past lives, but no matter what he does, she will never fall in love with him. that was his punishment. he had to watch the love of his life slowly fall in love with another man but will have no control over it. no one but god and the lovers knew, that they were ill-fated from the start.


LMFAO THAT WAS A WHOLE MF STORY

also how do i drop this manhua like i rlly wanna stop and regret reading this so bad but for some reason i cant..