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Am I feeling sympathetic towards yeonjae, probably, yes I do, him being born the way he (his "nature" is what he says it is) is none of his fault, I can understand he doesn't know that what he feels for Seoyoo is affection, maybe love. Actually I know it's love, a possessive type of love.
It honestly feels like we're going around in circles so I just wish he'd realise.
Can I interpret his "deep affection" as progress....?
Now the second question, Do I want Seoyoo to grow a darn backbone? Heck Yea! To the point it's frustrating. He keeps wanting to create boundaries but allows Yeonjae to crawl his way through the boundaries like it's cutting a piece of cake. I already know for a fact that he does not want to get over his feelings as much as he says he wished cutting off his feelings for Yeonjae was as easy as when he stopped playing piano without regretting it.
I do think that sometime in the near future he'll push Yeonjae away. But he's being so confusing right now. Like when they're being intimate but Seoyoo doesn't want Yeonjae to kiss him, or him not telling Yeonjae he never slept with any other guy. It's some mixed signals type shi for me my brain feels fried TTwTT