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I really love manga and I love how the children aren't all the same. I've seen children like Minato a lot, one of the reason children are like is probably because they want attention. I think seeing the consequences of his own actions is something he can take and learn from.
I'm not a middle child but rather the oldest and I was always angry as a child. Then I'd see my parents struggling with and all the adult responsibilities you could take, I felt guilty and decided I should be more understanding and not get angry as much.
Honestly, from what I see the way Naoto and Hazuki raising the children, there's not much I could say other than they're doing really well. Some parents, well my parents as well, won't even take any sort of accountability for any mistake their children makes. For example, if my younger sibling did what Minato did and got my mum/dad hurt, I'd be severely scolded and worse would have gotten hit several times with curse words thrown at me every second. The way Hazuki handled the situation was honestly really good, although he shouted he still felt guilty.
Not once have I ever seen or felt a single parent around me ever feel guilty for shouting at their child.
[The next part is just me yapping]
[Trigger warning: su*cide, stabbing]
I asked my mum about her or my dad or my grandparents hitting me as a child. She said she did it because she loved me and immediately I was like "how does that mean you love me? I've never felt like you loved me." She was shocked and I was shocked because she truly belived that, that love of hers was conveyed to me properly like that. On top of that, before she said that part, she said she doesn't remember ever hitting me, at first I was like am I being gaslit? Then are these memories of mine fake? I was hit with a hanger, a belt, slippers and my grandparents had this medium sized 1inch thick wooden plank. I even remember my mum stabbing my brother on the leg with a fork and I think he still has marks from that.
The first time she realised that I was struggling and was mentally and emotionally tired was when I was 16/17, after she had a fight with my dad (they had been fighting a lot for quite a while before that), at that point I had such a hard time trying to keep them from fighting. As the oldest sibling it felt like I was supposed to be responsible for my siblings (my brother is a year younger so not so much him but my younger sisters are at least 10 years younger), and I didn't want them fighting in front of them. I tried to talk to my mum about it and she didn't care, and that when all the feelings I had bottled up for so long just burst out. I started crying uncontrollably and I told her I've been wanting to kill myself for so long and had attempted before. She hugged me and said she didn't know I felt like that, but she's never asked how I was doing, EVER.
To be honest, I don't think I'll ever heal properly but I think that's ok, the only downside is that I'll probably never be able to trust anyone properly anymore. Love is also something I don't think I'll be able to do, who knows though maybe I'll find someone one day.
Sorry for writing a lot, I've never been vulnerable enough to anyone to say this and I guess I just needed somewhere to put it and decided to do it. Thank you for reading it <3.