
does anyone have a link to the novel?? I can’t find it :(

I just checked and it looks like the links got removed due to DMCA. You can try searching with the title with "novel" at the end and you might find aggregator sites that copied some of the translations. But it doesn't look like anyone picked it up so MTL might be your best bet.
https:// novelight .net/ book/ secretary-gwanggongs-survival-diary
this was sad to read but I will say I did like seeing the way his eyes dulled ,, I feel like it said enough about how he really felt about their relationship without having to dig deeper into it. in my head my guy is able to escape this marriage