i tried to do these chapters on my own at some point last summer bc i am a huge suzuri machi fan and i failed miserably. you did great!!! thank you so much <3
i kind of hate that kyo cheated on eri. absolutely an awful thing for him to do, but there was also no evidence prior that would show him to be the kind of person who would do that? i understand that he isnt fit for eri at all, but i really liked his character and i thought him being a genuinely caring and good person made the conflict so much more interesting... making him cheat feels like the author is kicking him out in such a weak way :/
my whole life (im 18) i've been very sure of the fact that i'm a cis girl, and i've been happy with that, having long hair and dressing femininely in skirts and dresses and all that.
lately though?? i've been going into just my underwear and looking in the mirror and i'm really unhappy with what i see. i dont like that my chest isn't flat, i don't like that i'm not taller, i don't like my hips or my shoulders or my voice. it's really bothering me. i've even considered going out and buying sports bras to make my chest flatter even though i've never liked how sports bras made me feel. i've never felt this way before??
today i reread a manga about a trans man (to strip the flesh by tooda oto) and it hit so hard i ended up crying, and lately i've been reading things like gender bending mangas where guys become girls and girls become guys. also... two months ago, i had a dream where i grew a dick. sorry, tmi, i know, but i feel like its relevant.
i want to say that i'm pretty fine with being a girl. i still like dressing up in skirts and dresses and i like girly things like sappy romances and cute plushies and fashion and pink and blah blah blah. i'm fine with being a girl, i think i'm just upset with my body.
i don't really know what i'm saying here lmao, but i think i just needed to get it out. this doesn't really cover everything i feel about gender, after all. if you feel similar to how i do at all and you feel seen, please say so!! i want to know i'm not alone in this weird state of maybe-i'm-trans but maybe-i'm-not.
okay stupid fucking question i know but it's 5 am and im curious. any manga you consider the BL (or GL i dont mind) one piece? or, in laymans terms, its fucking long as shit by your standards. doesnt have to be a good manga or anything, just long. and gay. lmao