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I was deluding myself into thinking that Byul would not use Hyesung's past actions as something to equate with his grandmother's neglect and betrayal. I understand that he is a teen—a hormonal one at that—and wasn’t really thinking properly. I don't want to dwell on why he tries to understand his grandmother's side of the story and not Hyesung's.
He was hurt, keeping to himself the discovery that Hyesung had once abandoned him—I understand that, I truly do. Hyesung did raise him well, pampered him, spoiled him, and maybe was even willing to give all the galaxies to his child if he could. Byul knows that Hyesung loved him dearly. However, I could not find in myself any sympathy. I understand him, but I also disliked the situation he had created. Curious, he was. But I hope he understood that his curiosity had a reason it was hidden from him.
I do not want this situation to be the reason for Hyesung to forgive his mother. I want him to be strong and stick with his decision. Not everything can be solved with forgiveness. It pains me that he is still in his postpartum state—we don't know what he'll do, what he could do, or ultimately, what thoughts could swirl inside his mind—of his husband and his child. The trust he had had crumpled in a single text message. I wish they would treat Hyesung’s traumas and his very self as something valuable. Just because he is funny, a little screwy, doesn't mean anyone can just disrespect him.
Hyesung is a complex character—layers upon layers of suffering, guilt, and trauma buried beneath the happy life he could hold in his hands. But slowly, those layers are starting to surface. I want Hyesung to crash out, to leave, and do whatever he must to make those people understand the severity of what they did to him.