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(TMI incoming) I’m neither a man nor gay but as a lesbian girl this hit so hard. I don’t like men and I love dating women, I have no doubts about my sexual orientation… But I’m surrounded by mostly heterosexual people in heterosexual relationships, and have been since I was a child. It’s hard knowing that I won’t ever be able to have that SAME experience but with a girl. I won’t be able to display my affections as freely as heterosexual couples. I won’t be able to be with my partner without the fear of being sexualized for it. I won’t be able to go out together with them without people assuming we’re just good friends. And I could go on forever, but it’s simply that I won’t be able to love live heterosexual couples. And it’s not (only) about how non-heterosexual couples have it harder, but it’s just THAT IT’S DIFFERENT. And I’m grateful that nowadays it’s not that hard for us, but that doesn’t make it any easier to come to terms with the fact that I will never have a relationship free of the strings that come attached to a wlw relationship. I’ll never be able to experience what it natural for heterosexual relationships.
I’ve never truly been able to find a way to describe this feeling, but this story explains it beautifully. Yes, the pace is sorta rushed but it’s shocking how the author was able to convey this complex experience in such a clear and understandable way. I’m even more amazed that this was this author’s debut story… It was so good.