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I swear to God seeing what happened to YW and getting a chance to see everything from JH's perspective is so jarring because while YW is suffering throughout Middle School JH was living his best life completely unaware of what YW was going through.
I'm going to be completely honest seeing their relationship through JH'S eyes is so sad because in the beginning he felt like YW was this precious little brother who he would always be there for and eventually over time their relationship on his side started to feel like a burden. Like just thinking about it makes me want to cry.
And I can 100% understand why JH felt like that and it also puts into a greater context that their relationship being codependent has always been that way. they have always been in a codependent relationship. And now what JH said to nari makes a lot more sense because he told her that he was the reason why YW is not growing. And he's right because it is his fault that YW has not grown since middle school. The fact that when JH saw that YW was doing perfectly fine without him he felt jealous and kind of dissatisfied is proof that their relationship was not healthy from the get-go.
But as the reader I'm so attached to them both and I want them both to stay friends but Haesol is right. they need space from each other because they cannot be near each other and just have a normal relationship. it's going to go back into being a codependent one the moment something bad happens.
Like the more this goes on my emotions are telling me I want them to stay friends they have to stay together but then my head is telling me they need to stay apart just for a while because if they stay together they're going to end up hurting each other more than helping. (╥﹏╥)
UGGH THIS IS SO CONFLICTING. (ノ｀Д´)ノ彡┻━┻