Saddie's Things

So basically I'm taking Spanish for my uni course and I lowky have an F. Like big fat red F there's no way I'm getting outta that cause I missed a test (not like I would have passed it anyway), have pure reds from other graded work and the only thing that's green is my attendance. I've already decided I'm gonna redo the class next fall, so I gen don't see any point in going to the class. I'm just wasting my time. The fact is I'm not good with learning math much less a whole ass language so I knew I was doomed when I saw both math and Spanish on my outline. HOWEVER in math I acc have a C+ like guys if thats not my best score for math then idk what is. I'll probably focus on math so I can at least past the final exam but gen dont have any hope for Spanish. The terrible news is that my Spanish teacher is also my English teacher..

To give a little background info school sucks and i dont have the will to care abt getting stuff done. i am lowkey failing Spanish and Math right now but i didn’t even want to do them(i took summer classes for math and went right back into school after it, no gap year or nun sadly) so i am super unmotivated.

i really don’t care if i pass or fail like yeah i hope i do but even if i do i just won’t care. same thing can be said with my friends too i don’t have the energy to care if they feel like i am not hanging out with them. yeah i will think about it but at the end of the day i either care too much or don’t care at all. relationships, family, school or my future i don’t care about it.

my birthday is also coming up and my friends planned stuff for it because i did it for them last year but chat i don’t wanna go and don’t care about the day i was born on. it has been like five years and i don’t care about what 9-5 dead end job i am gonna end up stuck with either because it damn well feels like it already. Chat am i doomed or am i doomed? ╮(￣▽￣)╭

So i was doom scrolling as usual on insta (biggest first mistake and came across an Asian lady cooking a traditional dish and i was like dam she making me hungry only to find out not everybody felt the same??? Lowky was dissing her and sayin mean shit chat.. I gen dont understand why stereotypes exist? and just wanted to know how are stereotypes (positive or negative) harmful? DO educate this poor soul cause honestly google aint helping rn. if u have an experience this would be even better (to help me understand) honestly..

Know i ik dam well this don't make sense but like to be more specific the vibe of the song would define your appearance and the strongest feeling you felt while listening to it would be the base.

Id like for mine to be Stray.wave specifically the slowed ver