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So fine, I get that the ml has major issues, including but not limited to some insane inferiority complex which makes him unable to believe Annette could ever truly love him because he "doesn't deserve her".
He not only went through some insane trauma throughout his entire life, his only way to stay "sane" and push through everything to survive, was to look at Annette as if she was some sort of God, and she would somehow save and heal him, then he went completely nuts when he realized she's only human and can't fix him, so he completely retreated from her and even shunned her because of it, while she was completely unaware.
It makes sense if you consider how traumatizing his life has been, he needed an anchor in order to survive and the closest thing to a moment of comfort he ever had was listening to Annette playing the piano and looking at her, an innocent and pure child at the time. Sure, it makes sense that she would become almost holy in his eyes and that realizing she's not some otherworldly saint would send him spiraling.
It's very interesting as a psychological trope and I am very invested in the story.... that said... I ABSOLUTELY HATE THIS AS A ROMANCE STORY.
How tf am I meant to root for this toxic ass relationship where they both just keep destroying each other because they love the other but absolutely don't know how to convey it without it coming out as insincere or even vengeful???
Annette is not perfect by any means, but ml needs some serious therapy and to possibly be removed from this type of society for a couple of years before he can start forming any meaningful relationships.
Anyway, just ranting, my apologies if you actually read this far... (￣∇￣")