What you need, is to take a long break from consuming bl, I’m not talking about week or two…. Maybe 3 months. Take the time instead and maybe educate yourself or find a new hobby
I'm gonna be straight forward and honest You need help stop reading bl for a while because from my understanding your just Fetisizhing Gay people and also being homophobic towards them try reconnecting with the reality and stop reading those toxic overly smutty BL(how'd I know you read them?? I just know)
it ok to feel that way, don't listen to hateful comments. reality and fictions are two different things. i also don't feel anything when i see couples in real life. some extra lovey dovey couple even make me cringe, when they do stuff in public. like bro do it in private. its also normal to feel that way toward lgbtq.
it could just be coz you're young so you're highly idealistic and naive, but you need to look at the situation clearly first to see where it went wrong. Is it really homosexuals or the actions in BLs happening live in front of you that's making you feel off? Say, a person who looks and acts gay sits beside you, just scrolling through their phone,......

I'm sorry what do I do...I don't understand