i've been suicidal yet cowardly since i was 10 so i'm kinda looking forward to it... fingers crossed, i hope i die on my 50th birthday (golden jubilee, full circle) bc 25 is tooooo early and 75 would be too much...
i'm 99.9% sure i'm gonna inherit grandma's arthritis and osteoporosis (starting signs are already visible on my mom), i wanna die befo......
