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I really like how complex their dynamic is. To be honest I feel like at the start the ML was approaching things properly and then he fucked up. Like you understand there's a huge age gap and your prior relationships complicates this new one, you know you're hurting him by looking for someone else right in front of him and then you still sleep with him despite knowing he likes your romantically? As the older one, you should be more responsible in what you do. Cause MC has looked up to you since he was a teenager. But then again I understand in the omegaverse ruts and heats are something that OVERRIDE logic and senses. It's a biological phenomenon that happens and he CAN'T control it, as sad and as annoying as that is. So the first time he wasn't even too aware as to what the fuck was going even hell I can compare the heat/rut to being incapacitated by drugs/alcohol/anesthesia. As for our MC he has serious self esteem issues and he has an inferiority complex. I cannot blame him he grew up in a really scary, violent and abusive environment. Now add on survivor's guilt and seemingly PTSD. It seems like he hasn't healed yet at all like he's been coping and living on autopilot without properly processing his emotions. I'm not excusing what he did, because it was wrong and borderline a crime the first time but it would explain why he had such crazy ass mood swings. One moment he's wallowing in an inferiority complex because he's not what his hyung "needs" (an omega) and the other he's completely smitten by him. Then in another moment he hates him with a burning passion. Then he loves him more than life. There's a lot of stuff to process here :(