Need an aleksander's feed

Do u guys have recs for bl where one of em is like fucked up in the head lowkey or have abusive background (u get the idea) and is utterly obssessed n rlly in love with the other person but its also rlly well written, good art, no cringe shit n no cringe smut. Mostly plot driven too

An example is lost in the cloud, I rlly want more complex well written charcaters like the ones in there, sometimes I feel like im chasing a high ill never get to experience again.

Oh and dont recommend backlight n checkmate I already read those, thanks!