Justsotiredofeverything's Things

I've a lover I love very much. But I believe the things we want from each other is totally different. I want someone who is happy/ eager to text me , call me, ask me how my day was. But it's always the opposite. I am happy to ask him how his day was, how he is feeling but he doesn't think of me even a single second on his day. I am always the one to reach out. If he wanted to be with me , if he actually loved me, he would've asked. Asked how I was doing, how my day was. I am just tired of doing everything for him. I cook food for him, help him in his assignments, listen to his problems a. Please be true with me. Is he only with me because there is something to gain? I'm just tired of asking him to prioritize me in his daily schedule. I mean if he wanted to, he would have. I don't wanna be this gullible, please just say something. I don't care if it's mean, just say something so that I can leave his ass alone.

So, I have had a crush on this guy for a very long time. He broke up with his girlfriend like almost a year ago. As I got to know that I started advancing on him so we are dating for 5 months now. I have been very very patient with him. He cried missing his ex and I even consoled him.

I am trying to be understanding of his loss and even gave space. I asked if he wanted some more time so I could wait but he said it's not needed and he's over now. I was happy obviously but recently he has been reposting reels like yearning and waiting for them, saved and liked posts about exes. I believe I have treated him much nicely since we started dating but we just had a fight. I have been crying about the things he reposts, and I wished he would come to understand what I felt. But whenever we fight, instead of asking for forgiveness, he says , ' so should I just leave then ? ' I realized I made him too comfortable to disrespect me. So, I just broke up with him. I am very hurt. I felt like no matter how much I loved him, I was always a replacement . Haha sorry for rambling. I just wanted to pour my thoughts out.