Comi

Here’s some I like, hopefully you haven’t read all of them:
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/blue_blue_blue/
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/aiou_futari/
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/number_call/
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/snow_fairy/
These two are a little on the artsy side, but if you don’t mind that, they’re really good:
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/vanilla_chocolate_cigarette/
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/tonari_ni/

Omg yes! Thank you! You get me!

What's the name of the incest yaoi? ....Asking for a friend.

Carter family?

You just need shounen ai not yaoi :)
https://www.mangago.zone/home/mangalist/897747/

BL with literal shoujo vibes? I GOT CHU
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/faded_first_love/

Yep

Thank you! I will now get a new dentist appointment for All the fluffs I'll consume

Perchance

Read shounen ai like Here you are. Literally just stick to shounen ai, its BL without the sex. Dont see whats wrong with smut tho, its not like its any worse than american incest yaoi(?)

There's nothing wrong with it. yk, sometimes you just want fluff. But yeah, I literally thought the shounen ai is just japanese for bl lol. I didn't think it was an actual tag that doesn't include smut, or am I just dumb...that said, the smuts are frying my brain.

Oh, when you said "American," I thought you meant it was about Americans. I definitely don't want to read yaoi written by an American, because it'll probably be terrible. And I know I'm right, because

*because that artwork is horrendous.

Sorry, accidentally hit the post button.

Lol, I just read it because it was so absurd (I was right) the incest go back 2 generations ToT

Oh yeah, you were looking for recs. Pretty much everything I read is smut, but ones where the characters have deep genuine connections and don't fuck right away are as follows (EACH ONE OF THESE ARE AMAZING) -
1. Bloody Moon - https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/bloody_moon_yuzuya/
2. Dreaming of the Dokkaebi - https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/the_mountain_branches_dream_of_goblins/
3. The Rogue Prince Is Secretly An Omega - https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/the_rogue_prince_is_secretly_an_omega/
4. A Second Chance For the Outcast Prince - https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/how_the_sidekick_prince_lives_again/
5. I Can See Your Stats - https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/i_can_see_your_stats/
6. Where The Wind Stays - https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/the_place_where_the_wind_blows/
7. Ennead - https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/ennead/
8. Blood Under the Moonlight - https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/midnight_dweller/uu/br_chapter-142825/pg-1/
9. Raising A Bat - https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/raising_a_bat/
10. Dead Man Switch - https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/dead_man_switch/
11. Radio Storm - https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/radio_storm/
12. Rainbow City - https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/rainbow_city/

OMG YOU'RE THE GOAT!!!! I'm so glad I asked for recs, this could last me for months! Tysm!!

Np! If you remember and feel like it, lmk your thoughts if you get around to reading any of them. Each one of those is an absolute diamond.

I mean I have intrusive thoughts but I dont plan to act on it. If you're not feeling secured in your own thoughts then maybe seek professional help idk.

Please seek help! you are precious.

you may have depression or bipolar disorder, either way better seek professional help boo, hold tight <3

Thanks for all the reply, I don't plan on acting upon it but there are times that it's too tempting tho that it scares me. I have been looking for professional help in a long time but have always been put off my priority because of how expensive it is.

Anyways, thank you guys for validating my feelings I just need to make sure I wasn't making this up. My head feels clouded most of the times too. So I hope I can make it before I can finally get help.

If it feels real to you, then it's a real threat to your health and stability. Good luck out there!

I don't know what country you're from, but if therapy is too expensive for you, then check if you can get it from your health insurance.

Thank u sm for checking up on me, times like these feels like I'm not alone and that there's a community for me. I honestly thought this post is gonna get buried and that's that but I'm glad there are people reaching out.

And yeah I live in a 3rd world country, I don't think I have insurance but I'm going to University this week and I think they have counseling there. I'm checking it out if I ever have another episode, but yeah thanks again.