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I kind of wish Haesoo had his own personal growth. When Joowon left to be a star after their taboo sexual interactions and Joowon's coercion, he knew that he needed someone to fill the gap but acted tough and independent instead. Taku came along and filled Haesoo's gaping heart for the time being-a distraction-sex, art, and vague signs of love, because Taku didn't want anything complicated and because Haesoo needed some new air to breathe. The concept of taboo relations was flimsy after their parents divorced, but Joowon was still occupied with his job and it's pressure (being gay is dangerous stuff in the entertainment industry). Joowon and Taku find out about each other and feel jealousy even though they know their own circumstances. Joowon is at risk of losing his job if he is official with Haesoo, and Taku is at risk of losing his heart because Haesoo is the only person he truly longed for. Joowon developed slowly over time and Taku found out his love with a confession through an exponential wave of realization. My heart aches for both men, but Haesoo feels like he is too dependent, that he needs a person there for him, and fear of loneliness, which is normal and understandable but I wish he learned to handle his feelings and cope in a real way instead of putting on a front. Haesoo's has so much potential.