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Solemn shared experience about having a lover
I can't quite use the term lover for us cause we were never together to begin with or idk. I've been on and off relationship with this guy for 3 years it always starts around October and would end on December 28. Idk why I keep seeking him or whatsoever and I don't quite get why he's also like this as me. Everytime I got into a relationship I can't......