The original ending was kinda funny and lighthearted, while this extra ending got me feeling depressed ( T﹏T ) let's just stick with the original as our headcanon
??? what og ending?
the chapter before this
oh i didnt get it bc i didnt think of it like that
in my head the extra go on in my imagination so i cant think of it as an ending
I'm trying to understand why Mafuyu keeps saying he's lonely despite having Given, Ue, and his mom?? I guess it's not that easy to move on from such a traumatic experience with your first love, so I get that he still wants to "see" Yuki in music. But I hope that hole in his heart heals and that Yuki isn't his motivation for music. I want to believe that Ue isn't simply a replacement.
Like other comments have said, I think the author can't let go of Yuki---he's been a highlight in almost every arc, even till the last few pages of the extra ending. The original ending at least ended with Mafuyu and Ue.
The last line from him gave such a bittersweet tone to what I expected to be a happy conclusion ╥﹏╥
There’s a difference between being alone, and loneliness!
Back when I was in high school, I was so depressed that no matter how many friends I had or how well surrounded I was from my family, I just always felt alone. I’m not sure not to explain it properly, but it’s like that really isolating feeling that made me feel like no one could actually understand how I felt no matter how hard it was explained, and in a way, while I hate using those kind of cheesy and kinds cringe expressions, it really does feel like there’s an actual hole in your heart. Like that feeling of loneliness is so profound that even I struggled to understand it, and no matter who was around me, telling me and showing me they loved me, it never actually made it any better.
Like I was conscious that I wasn’t alone and that I truly had people that loved me and with whom to this day, I’m still grateful they stuck around, but because it wasn’t actually influenced by how many people were in my entourage and how much they love me, that feeling of being lonely all the time just couldn’t be fixed. Even today, I still have days where I feel like that, and if I had to guess, it’s because even I don’t know why I feel like this and I can’t treat it at the root.
In Mafuyu’s situation, it’s Yuki, but since Yuki is dead, he can’t just get rid of that feeling of loneliness by having people around him. If I had to guess, rather than Uenoyama being Yuki’s replacement, music is. He loves Uenoyama for who he is and for the new feelings he made him discover, but he loves music because it’s a reminder of Yuki, but in the good sense. Mafuyu’s memories of yuki being music were always of his suicide, Then Uenoyama took him in as their singer. When Mafuyu sang fuyunohanashi, he was also letting go of the sad memories of them fighting and of yuki’s death, since then, music became a way for him to remember sunrise he once loved, without necessarily thinking of the trauma he left behind, but the emptiness left behind certainly remains, and while it can never be filled completely again, as years pass, it will definitely feel a lot smaller. It will no longer take up so much of his thought’s and It will probably be a fond and distant memory that flares back up every now and then. His memories with Uenoyama, given and syh will grow and the loneliness might shrink, but because yuki was such a huge part of his life, I doubt it will ever completely disappear, which is why mystic is a good replacement for yuki. He can find him in music and keep it them as fond memory without it adding to trauma, and Instead helping him heal from it.
That’s mostly just my interpretation of how I see it, since my experience don’t speak for everyone, but I like to think that this is how it is, since it feels much healthier and reasonable than if Mafuyu was using Uenoyama as Yuki’s replacement!
SORRY FOR THE ESSAY!!!
Was hoping the biker would be another hot guy lol
She's a gurl HAHAHHAA
Chanwoo is whipped for her and he doesn't know it yet ugghhh they're so cute
Istg Chinatsu better not be falling for her neighbor