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Sorry to sound like a bitch but I miss the intelligent old posters who:
1- didn't complain all the time because they're too lazy to remember the story (bitch please, that's on you and your memory, not the author's fault)
2- didn't complain because the story is heavy on the plot and lighter on the sex. This is a masterpiece in the making so the author is taking her sweet time with developing the actual relationship, as she should. If all you care about is sex, please go read the other thousands of BL's on this website that have the male leads fuck after the first eye contact.
Above all, I'm tired of people hating on Yashiro. Yes he's crude, he has a sadistic streak and yes, he has hurt Doumeki. He's not above criticism. However, friendly reminder that time and time again, he has asked Doumeki to LEAVE the yakuzas and Doumeki REFUSED. He did it nicely in the beginning when there was no immediate danger but he had to be strict once Doumeki's life started to be in danger just because some people were targeting Yashiro and Doumeki was in the way.
All he's ever done is try to protect Doumeki. From the beginning he thought Doumeki should and could get a decent job instead of being a yakuza's bodyguard. After a while, it became about saving Doumeki's life. Doumeki is stubborn as hell and won't listen when he asks nicely so what was he supposed to do?
Right now he's being unnecessarily mean because he's realising that Doumeki's love for him messed up his entire life. His face is scarred, he's missing his pinky. He's 100% yakuza now, he won't ever be able to get a normal job and a normal life. Yashiro, who thinks of himself as pure trash that doesn't deserve to live (let me remind you that he literally went on a suicide mission on purpose before the timeskip), has all the right reasons to be angry because of that. The way he sees it, Doumeki threw away his life for nothing. Snarky remarks are all he's got to cope with the situation.
Furthermore, have compassion for a rape survivor. This isn't the usual "uke" who's being undecisive for silly reasons. Yashiro literally is still suffering from PTSD from being raped for years as a child, being abandoned by his parents and being forced to join the violent world of the yakuzas at the age of 19, not to mention being sexually degraded by dozens of men since he was a teenager because of said trauma. Yes, he was seeking out these violent hookups but don't think for a second that it didn't have an impact on his soul and his psyche. Every single hookup was a re-enactment of his rape and a way to convince himself that he's unworthy of love, unworthy of knowing happiness, unworthy to live. The author is being extremely accurate with her portrayal of PTSD caused by rape and I'll always be grateful for that.
I'll also end on that note: Yashiro has no obligation to return Doumeki's feelings, no matter how pure and deep Doumeki's love is. I see lots of people complaining about that, and you sound like incels. If someone loves you very much that doesn't mean you have to love them back. Of course people who actually pay attention to the story know that Yashiro is passionately in love with Doumeki so I don't get the complaints to begin with but just wanted to point that out.