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The cicadas scene hurts so much because Dohu actually learned how to comfort Juheon, he just learned what Juheon really wanted too late.
Back in Ch. 51, when Juheon was anxious about talking to his aunt, Dohu told him:
“Mr. Cicada is shy, but once he sees your face, he’ll come out.”
It was way of comforting Juheon and saying, I’m here, You’re not alone.
So now, when he gets drunk four years later, and he hugs Juheon telling him:
“Where have you been? Today the cicadas…”
He’s really saying dont disappear, I wasn't able to understand you then but I'm here now, I still love you.
Through the last 4 years Dohu beat himself up and now understands the emotions Juheon needed all along. Their breakup wasn’t because they didn’t care about one another, It was because they didn’t know how to say what they really needed or what they wanted to say.
And the saddest part?
He might not even remember saying it…
but Juheon will. my heart hurts
this is too much
omg this is so sad..
I've been posting so much, but its bc this story is so well written. Regarding Dohu's hair, The more I think about Dohu’s long hair, the more it breaks me.
When Juheon left, Dohu kept everything exactly as it was, even his hair.
Because cutting it would mean time has passed and that Dohu moved on. And he never did.
His long hair symbolizes the four years of waiting,
of hoping the person he loved would come back and still recognize him.
He changed in every painful way, like wearing hats, hiding himself, and didn't keep his hair short because it was the one that reminded him of Juheon and cutting it would mean thathe accepted that their relationship is in the past, but its not .
Oh shyt thanks to you I cried again (´；ω；｀)