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even if I love my siblings, I don't love them enough to submit and be reduced as something not even better than trash, I might jump infront of a moving train for them but I'm only doing that bcs it's just a one way ticket to the afterlife without having to feel any pain and go through a suffering far more worse than hell, it sounds selfish bcs it is but I don't even have that much self love for myself as it is and for me to choose myself in that situation instead of saving my only sibling? y'know it's that bad