Please talk about this with your psychologist, I think a professional should be able to help with this more than mangago users.
Just gonna put in my 2 cents. Love, trust, etc isn't something that's automatically earned just by being blood related.
From my experience, feeling guilty like that is because of all the guilt tripping they did. "Oh Ive ...... 1 reply
Exposing @cestelle because how could you delete my response to your comment and make me unable to comment Im so lonely, talk to me.
Unfortunately I didn't take screenshots but I do have my memory so Ill be nice and rewrite my response to you and paraphrase what you said c: (go check out their comment then come back to this)
me: Tbh I think that ...... 4 reply