
no matter how sexy it is i cant bring my self to be gooning over the sex scene (like when i read any other smut bl manhwa), not even when he making love with wooyeon. it's inappropriate, i feel the humiliation he felt, the shame, the hatred, idk i just don't feel like human. i had to stop the reading MANY times and getting my heart to be ready for wtv came in the next panel. i even questioning myself like why did i read this in the first place but I don't regretting my choice at all. reading how happy they 3 in their own life made my mental state slowly going back to normal. at first i was like, "EVERYONE IN THIS MANHWA IS A JERK BRUH, EXCEPT THE 3 MAIN CHARACTER, HOPE THEY ROT IN HELL", but then i was like, okay, whatever, as long as they happy and content, i don't rlly care whether it is an ultimate happy ending where all the bad guys were killed or not.
i did kinda bothered with sungyeon's act towards hosik in the early chapter, but now i find their relationship is good tho. they're alr married, i think it's normal to worried over stranger that reached out to your partner out of nowhere, no? okay maybe sungyeon is a bit too controlling (i even thought he was a great manipulator too lol —in a good way, ofc) but i guess when u love someone (or more like obsessed), u would do smth a bit excessive such as run a background checks especially when u have the money and power like sungyeon