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I like the way this is written, imo it reflects well how the darkness and the thoughts slowly settle in you with time, crumpling you away.
Plus the whole "Is a joke" after. Is not a joke but you have to tell otherwise else more headaches come and that's the last thing one needs, when all wanted is just to have the ways to pause and have a rest from existence.
Despair enough for rash decisions don't appear at once, it's build over time and while you can carry the weight for good time, the accumulation of it will eventually sink you down and crush you.
That's what makes this title different to others for me: the problems don't appear in just some chapters but are shown in detail for an extensive period, making you understand in a more extensive way, just how devastating being in the bottom of the pit is.