seabi

Oh my I love that game

me tooooo it’s so cute and beautiful

That game is soooo cute! I wish there’s more ‘cause the ending just made me cry.
It’s not good especially if you are a cat person haha

sigh… i love cats i genuinely started crying back when he fell and lost his friends, im wayyy too emotional
and now i’ve just finished what remains of edith finch, girlll stop haha

Im not happy, but pursuing to a path that can lead me foward is something I’ve always been trying to do. Finding interests that resonates with me is a nice coping mechanism. I dont want to die because I want to find something that I cant let go one day. Happiness is a butterfly, but fluttering with that butterfly can make you realize much more than you think.

thank you that made me cry, i hope you will find someday this happiness and be okay <3

Honestly, I once had depression so bad I stayed at home for two years and slept. I gained about 30kg in that time frame and almost ended everything but managed to bounce back. There is no permanent state of „happiness“, it‘s not a goal you can just reach. Happiness is something we experience in intervals between hardships. Just keep yourself as busy as you can and try to be of help to others, it will give you a sense of purpose. Also try to get a lot of movement and sunlight during the day

im glad you managed to bounce back, im so happy for you !!!!
personally i don’t have lots of friends, i don’t go out im just rotting in my bed and getting high to just feel something. i try to help others as much as i can even if sometimes they ask for too much. im trying to have a routine, simple things just getting up and showering, i still find it ridiculous to live such a life at almost 19yo. thanks for your advice, although i don’t think i will ever feel comfortable living this life, nor feel a bit of happiness.

I don’t think there is something like cringe when you are dealing with mental illness. I for myself am neither attached to this world nor am I searching for the end. I just decided to view my life as some kind of game I am trying to play through. You don’t need to understand how other people are happy. Just try to find some kind of satisfaction for yourself. I think you heard words like mine many times but this is something I sincerely hope for you to understand. Since death is something everyone will experience, you could try to lessen the amount of burden you are carrying. As an outsider I wish for you to reach the end without regret.

thank you that means a lot to me, it really does

Romanticize your life, look forward to things even if small

i am trying, but i just cannot see a good future for me, everything is just so depressing and sad, it’s hard

I've been like that for 5 yrs and still now. Try looking for something interesting or anything that can keep you from boredom. Drawing, writing stories, musical instruments and especially working out. I only started to help myself just a week ago and I'm seeing some small improvement ( since my depression gets worse when I got nothing else to do)
Try listening to some music and self reflect while at it (not the depressing songs since that'll worsen it {in my case})
Watch some motivational videos too about some people that went through depression and maybe read wholesome fluffy stories mangas/manhuas/manhwas here too

yeah, also having a constant routine is good, that’s what i’m trying to do, but honestly i keep listening to radiohead so i don’t think that helps me very much the big problem is coping with my depression and my other mental issues prolly bpd tbh. and the derealization hits too hard, so yeah it feels like im js fucking doomed.
i’m so glad you’re trying to get better too, i hope it will work and you’ll get thru this ! u got this, thanks for the advice