aziel's Things

does anyone have any tips for like stopping social media
like im on the verge of deleting every single app i have that is in contact with people because i feel sick of it like i literally do not want to interact with anyone but i hold onto things easily
its hard for me to let go of them and i know i physically can't

social media feels so suffocating and its worse if u have basically no social life because your on it 24/7 which alters ur way of thinking, which is what it has basically done to me!! like im so sorry to say but i feel like im a total porn addict at this point or something. or like every time i scroll on instagram or tiktok or something i feel like its draining me

i might seem overdramatic but i feel as if its ruined me completely as a person aswell like i just feel sick of it
like im sick of everything online and everything in person

reading manhwa has kind of been a sort of coping mechanism to get me to escape from everyday life but recently ive stopped reading because ive started to prioritise sleep (i would read from 12am-5am every night which would fuck up my sleep schedule and lead me to have 2-3 hours of sleep almost daily) lmfao

im wondering if i have signs of depression or something aswell because i haven't been psychologically feeling okay for the past year. i dont want to self diagnosed myself though but going to my family and asking for a checkup doesn't feel right (still under their roof atm). as in my familys reaction towards this may be something that i do not want to experience lmfao because i live in an traditional asian household and i can't confide to my parents about anything without pure judgement. not to mention im an only child

i really dont know what to do