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Cant help but put myself in yujun's shoes. I also had someone that I hate with all my being because of how abrubtly and open ended our relationship ended. At the same time though, for the exact same reasons, i cant help but miss them so much. Its a constant cycle of nostalgia and hate. Never been able to sort out my feelings for them but I've almost completely forgoten about them after just 4 years to the point that i forgot why i was even so mad. Reading the latest few chapters made me remember them. That whole "missing you but hate you" feeling from yujun reminded me of these feelings that Ive tried so long to burry. Now i feel horrible...