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This is so sad. I replied to another comment but I say it again: “ I think it’s not much “fantasise” but rather an intrusive thought he got after he realised the real sort of “relationship” he got with the bottom. As you can see, he’s having a sort of break, so he probably didn’t mean to really think about that but rather it came to him as a violent outcome, just like sometimes after so much anger, some people might get the intrusive thought to physically react against an outsider threat, whether is against yourself or a third party.” The top clearly has issues, as self harming himself because he’s so upset over the fact that he lost something he truly wanted. The first time he wants something, and it got “snatched” in his mind, since the bottom was never his to begin with. I really hope the top does something about his mental health, instead of holding onto the bottom, since not even that can save him from the despair of realising he was not worth the sweetness of love. Or maybe if the bottom pinned the top, but it would be so unfair since the bottom has already gone through a rough patch, and he himself doesn’t hold himself in high regard, going as far as to think his wellbeing isn’t even a topic when it’s about these two “friends”. I would love to see if anyone agrees with this or if maybe I’m wrong !