CatleyaNeko

You know recently, i feel very very worried. Im so so scared like what if someone close to me dies, what if a loved one passed away? Its scaring the shit out of me, i always pray it wont happen.I never want it to happen again, Im so scared i dont know what to do.I guess, Its much better that i go first than them, im sl sorry. Im so selfish, i just love them so much( T﹏T )

my other dog is sick again,i dont have money to send her to vet :(
Im so worried, i hope she gets better. Want to spend christmasa and new hea r with her

I dont know if im lucky to have my parents or not, i know im loved but sometimes,i just really feel sorry for my brothers,for my parents and to myself

Im starting to feel like its going to be too late for me....
I dont feel sad or happy and im also getting tired of this repetative days...
What now...?

I look ugly, i feel so tired.
Idc anymore!

I hope i can fully overcome this fear and anxiety. Stop consuming my life!!

Its good to have a friend.
But somehow, inside me.. I still feel empty.
I wish i have something to look forward everyday.
I wonder whats going to be my future anyway?
If its still like this 3 or 5 years from now.
Will i regret not killing myself?

My dog died today 8.25.17
I saw him died on my lap.
I miss you already roque, I love you.
I'll tell my future kids about how adorable you are.
You can now rest baby. Thank you for everything.

The thing is, even if we dont want to continue,
We have to.
We must to.

I feel like im in the pit of despair.
I was such a good writer before, but i cant write anything anymore.

Kabakura is mine