tae ni sangawoah's Things

I wouldn't say i was a pick me exactly, more like i didn't wanna get stereotyped as a weak girl, of course I'm not saying that girls are weak but growing up as a child where boys are excused because they're just being boys, it made me resent being a girl.(Also because i thought having a penis would be fuckin awesome and i wanna look like a guy) I considered myself "not like other girls" at the ripe age of 8 lmfao, but with the help of the internet and it's wonderful (fuckass) community, i was able to realize that I was actually just.. a guy. Oh and I'm aromantic, yippie! (Not to get confused with aromatic, which are stuff that smella good because the last thing you can describe me with is "smells good"/jk i do shower)

I finally had the guts to finish up Apothecary diaries, MOTHER FUCKER. moon fairy jinshi had me foaming in the mouth tweaking, he's so maddeningly pretty i might actually start violently sobbing. GAHRHRHHAGA YOU'RE SO PRETTY, WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU PRETTIER THAN ME. anyways i need him (actually)castrated and become my wife.

I've been stuck in this state for months, maybe even years.. i have to sleep at the very corner of my room, i constantly feel as of something/someone might be watching me, I even get fuckin sleep paralysis here and there... I have to have a working fan next to me or I'll be waking up DRENCHED in sweat Is this like, a normal experience for ppl with untreated autism/depression or am I going bat shit insane. My heart genuinely doesn't feel correct gng, it's been beating like crazy...! (P.S. I don't do any substance abuse, I'm way too young for that brah)

How do we feel about the whole ww3 might be in days and not years? Man it's my birthday in 3 months, what if I'm gonna be looking at very a different type of fireworks by then brah

It's uhh... 7 months, i think? I don't think I'm recovering any sooner. I'm kining Viktor so much i got asthma and back issues a month into the show(I didn't actually, it just escalated more cuz i refused to sit properly and i have unhealthy habits) I'm also trans.. which is awesome, heh.. and i picked the name Viktor. Watch me die to an explosion next then get revived into some weird arcane herald brah, I'll update soon:3