this one still better than ‘no reason’—story telling wise
also i rarely read this type of story bcs i need to prepare my mental and enduring the warnings topics
but this one —surprisingly—i managed to finished it and im AMAZED w the author bcs they could draw and depict these violence and graphic scenes.
ntm the author said they always make dark bl as hobby and damn AS HOBBY and u did that so well (bcs im in fact traumatized)
im freaky but not as brick as ppl who enjoy dark bl,like… i went limp from traumatized then go freaky again then traumatized again








and my thoughts after reread it, its still fucked up but back then i was in denial that akamine was the one who raped the utsumi(?) (the top)
i had some false memory i thought someone did it to him but i guess not AFTER looking at akamines thoughts about saseki(?)
i think the reason why they said this series is good because how complex each characters the author portrayed, i wouldnt say this series romanticized rape, i couldnt call this ‘romance’ either
and i feel like putting akamine as bottom is the best option lmao
this fucked up story and this toxic relationship are the ultimatum of TOXIC YAOI
good story not always about fluff and ‘playing safe’
this story disturb ur moral compass, thats why its a fiction
i think people here should be mature enough to distinguish whats stayed in fiction and what not
also TWs matters so i hope they put or the uploader put something to filtered the audience (as someone w similar trauma experience)