Firstly, you've figured out what's likely at the very root of this anxiety - self-doubt and fear of rejection. It often takes people a long time to work that out, so that's impressive. I sense an element of low self-esteem too, which is common in those with social anxiety. E.g., you view these other people as cool and funny, but don't feel acceptin...... reply
Before I randomly quit, I was at grade 6 in piano. This month (after five years with no action) my dusty ass piano once more felt human touch. For reasons unclear to myself, I decided to start playing again. Alas, I've forgotten EVERYTHING. Having the teacher plonk a grade 1 piece of sheet music in front of me and realising I can't name a single no...... reply