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This is definitely not a review on the story, but more so on my personal reading experience.
It's such a heavy story, but feels so hollow which I'm thinking is bc of the art style. It's like I'm chasing a fading dream that I struggle to grasp any of it.
I just feel so hollow after the whole thing. It's so weird to me that I felt the most heaviness for the president, after he had found out about the illness. I didn't like him at all for the constant cheating. Hell, in theory I despise him the most. But the mc's resignation, the acceptance of their ending before it could be closed mutually on both sides, it's so??? cruel. Yet so well-deserved. And for some reason that makes me feel sympathy for the president.
I think the translation didn't help. I should really read it again from a better source to get a better understanding of it. Heck, I should really read the novel. I just feel so hollow after the whole thing. Everybody's saying they were sobbing, and while I understand that it's sad, I didn't even shed a single tear. I wish to be sad about this too. I thirst for the sadness.
And not in a "I'm so lonely I just want to fall in love with someone" way but more so like "I wanna know if I'm even capable of loving" like it's not a search for someone, but for a someTHING in the internal, existential sense. An aromantic type beat
That kills me