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And no that doesn't mean I like Nakwon. I started reading this today and always thought it interesting that most of the story is told in Nakwon's perspective. It looks to me the author intended it, we weren't supposed to like Nakwon at all. His thoughts on his rape, him as a person, they were all there for us to see. We know he intended to rape Mokhwa so we can't call it a mistake. Rather, a grave sin, that he acknowledges he did, which is Something. Too often in these BLs, the rape is only brushed upon if even at all, so for Nakwon to admit it, show to us readers that just because his feelings for Mokhwa have become love doesn't mean he can be forgiven for what he has done. And despite his admittance, he still fails, like that unconsented kiss in the summer vacation house (thank goodness for the fireworks), so we're always reminded that he is an imperfect person.
And is that not the most human a drawn fictional character can be, in trying to change and failing? Honestly, I don't know if he can ever be forgiven, that's up to Mokhwa ig, but as a fictional character, his growth is something I would love to watch upon.
Also, I just really love the language in which the story delivers itself. It's almost like reading a novel. I usually view gangster-themed works as tacky but there's something sophisticated in the language used, even with Mokhwa where it's more...raw.
Also, Nakwon really could have given Mokhwa more time to make sense out of what's happening, but Mokhwa has acknowledged that this is a situation he can get out of, he has free will, so that's Something.
And I don't know why I jumped into this thinking it was already completed. Rip me.