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There were times when I tried to read when it was ongoing and I would be put off by the comments complaining or by the trigger warnings. This time I read it in one go and I think it was the best way I could have gone about reading this.
It took me reading the whole thing to realize that the title wasn't just talking about Sooyoung. It was referring to Minhyuk and Taeseung as well. There was that panel after Minhyuk almost killed Taeseung but didn't, and Taeseung and Sooyoung walked off together, Taeseung leaning on Sooyoung even though Sooyoung is the cripple. It occurred to me then. "Ah, this is where it was all leading to."
It was by then, that the main characters could now "walk" or in other words, move on. Minhyuk was stuck on his hatred for the Dragon gang leader and made protecting Sooyoung his sole purpose. Once he realized that Sooyoung and Taeseung weren't parallels of his sister and the dragon, then he could move on. Moving on for him meant stopping, leaving Sooyoung's side as a protective figure.
Moving on for Taeseung meant getting over the fear of proximity. He loved Sooyoung to the point of orchestrating the whole ordeal so that the ending would be Sooyoung moving on with his life without himself in it. Honestly, what could be more selfless than wishing happiness on the person you love while fully knowing you won't be a part of it? I think there was also the idea that Taeseung felt undeserving to be by Sooyoung's side. The nature of him as a person meant danger itself to Sooyoung. Which is why he made all the necessary arrangements to make sure it won't be the case anymore.
Moving on for taeseung also meant that he would finally express his feelings as they were. Man has been in love with Sooyoung from the moment he laid his eyes on him. We've seen Taeseung putting in the effort to make amends.
Lastly, Moving on for Sooyoung meant walking, literally. There was a feeling of being stuck, of waiting on the other person's decisions and not being the one on the lead. He had a lot of realizations through Hansung. There was no need for him to wait to be saved (note how taeseung was always the one coming to Sooyoung's rescue but at the end, sooyoung was the one who saved taeseung from minhyuk?) or heal. He learned to initiate decisions, that he may be weak physically with one limping leg, but that didn't mean he couldn't take charge. Sooyoung running to taeseung's rescue without his crutch was the ultimate visualization of this, imo. Sooyoung making the decision to go to taeseung shows his intention to clarify all the confusion regarding his complicated feelings for taeseung.
Iirc, even before taeseung had ever touched sooyoung, sooyoung had always felt tenderness from taeseung. The only reason that could be, is bc Taeseung had always reflected that tenderness, even though it had been hidden at times.
I want to expound on Sooyoung's feelings but I don't have the words right now. So maybe later.
The "crippledness" represented by these characters can simply be put as brokenness. They were all broken one way or another, wounded by their childhood and their circumstances. But that didn't mean there is no healing, or moving on. I think at the end of the day, this is the message that the author wanted to relay, that we can all heal...we can all "walk".
And as a sidenote, there is no universe in which rape can ever be excused. However, please don't expect that a manhwa dealing with drugs and violence will be "morally correct". Honestly, just take it as the fictional work that it is and go. There's a reason why fictional works with such heavy themes have a disclaimer saying reader's discretion is advised.
I don't know how I will rate this yet as I haven't concluded my thoughts on it but I would definitely read it again!