FUCK THIS NOVEL I READ, I THINK THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG WITH THE AUTHOR'S HEAD OR THEY JUST LIKE TORTURING THEIR FEMALE LEAD (she was literally subjected to public humiliation, r*pe, abuse, and torture—the most severe torture is burning her the scars on her hands with silver then got slashed in the back for more than an hour—almost leading her to death which she wanted but unfortunately she survived that(she wanted to die I mean who wouldn't???)—and another humiliation in front of her only friend/the real male lead.
I was only able to keep going because I thought it was just another toxic, shitty, dark psychotic ml, but when I read that torture that son of a bitch did to her and in front of public at that, I just skimmed through the chapters hoping to see if it gets better and I found out her only friend was the actual male lead, but I still dropped and just continued to the part that the real male lead wants to kill the psycho villain.
I just wanna vent cuz I don't have ppl to talk to that yould actually listen.
I have an aunt that I lowkey cutted off because I realized she was only good to me and helped because she was expecting in return from my mother. And when she and my mother grew distant because she would always gossip ny mother's life to other ppl (they didn't exactly fight but my mother never trusted her again and didn't bother to reply to her messages for months) she also stopped helping me and left me to tend for myself.
An example to this is when I was so sick and couldn't get off bed and I asked her for help, she responded by saying I should go to a nearby pharmacy and buy medicine—and as I said I couldn't even get up. I haven't eaten anything at all, all day because I live alone. I had no choice but to ask help from my friends who I met just 8 months ago. And guess what they were the only ppl who actually extended their arm. I was finally able to eat and it was already night time when I called cuz I was too sick to even lift my phone after asking my aunt for help.
After delivery food and medicine which they didn't even take any money from me to pay, they actually offered to take care of me. I declined cuz ut was getting too late at night and I don't want them to be in danger when coming home. I was also feeling a bit better after hrs and hrs of sleep. After convincing them to go home I got emotional and criend because that was the first time someone ever do that for me.
fast forward to today, my aunt had the audacity to ask me how I was doing—months have already passed after that incident and I still could bring myself to forget. I waited until night time to respond to them and I always go hang out with my friends that helped me so that when they visit my apartment, I'm always not there. I will no distance myself from her, I still appreciate the help I received when she was still willing but I don't think I could still be as close to her like I used to back then. Idc if I'm the A**hole but I believe that my feelings are valid.
was gonna write "no longer associate with her" but forgot to erase the "no"
i think you did good. Cut her off and don't think about her anymore.
I can understand people who chooses their friends over their own family. Reality is for some of us, the first ppl to betray us is our own family. Maybe this is just me mumbling shts online with people who don't personally know me.
I'm actually the idiot for always trusting people even when I've been let down countless of times. The thing is I am extremely sick, it started last Monday. I asked our relatives for help since I live alone and their house is a bit far from my dorm but not too far that they couldn't come. My aunt replied nonchalantly saying I could take care of it myself when she was the one who told me to ask for help when I needed it.
My fever, sore throat, and cold got worse cuz I got depression and when I'm alone my mind would replay all the traumas and mental abused I've been through so I was constantly crying to myself.
Until last night I couldn't take it anymore I felt like dying cuz I couldn't even breath so I asked my friends for help. And yk what? They were the first people who actually showed that they care. They went to my dorm and brought me food and medicine. Although they couldn't nurse me since it was late at night, I still appreciated their efforts. I calmed down after that and was able to finally eat my first meal of the day and I was still crying to myself cuz ut was the first time someone did that for me(I've only known them for less than a year)
for additional context my biological father chose his mistress over me so I cut him off after they demanded me to apologize to them for opening up to my mom and telling her what they did to me.
My mom is working abroad so she can't physically be there for me, but I've informed her of my situation (just not the can't breath and depression part cuz she worries a lot) She told me to contact her friend rather than our relatives and maybe that's because she knows that we couldn't count on them. It was visible that they were only helping me while secretly wanting something in return and when they no longer have anything to gain from helping me, they distance themselves. This is truly a lesson for me.
Sometimes the closer one can hurt us badly than a stranger. in your case indeed your cheating bastard father. Hopefully your mom can divorce him and you can live with your mom instead.
they've broke up long ago since my mother would never tolerate cheating, but there's no divorce in my country so she just financially support me when I was living with my biological father. I can't live with them anymore so I left and now I'm living in a different place far away from them, my mother still supports me.
The blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb, as they say
last Monday my aunt died (my mother's sister) and as I was grieving so I excused myself from school for 3 days(I informed my classmates of the situation and they relayed it to our professors). Today, thursday I attended school to take special exam of the subject I missed taking last tuesday.
Fast forward—
I was walking outside the school with some of my classmates I'm not that close to and one of them asked me about my aunt, they go like "Is your aunt okay?"
Like I didn't tell them in our classroom gc that she died, I just thought how can my aunt be okay when she's dead? Is that what she really wanna ask me? I just responded with "girl, she's dead" and stayed silent after.
sorry for my grammar, english is not my first language.
I didnt need to know this but LOL
I kinda need to know how it continued (if it did)
I CACKLED THIS WAS FUNNY FOR NO REASON
she stayed silent after and didn't ask anymore cuz wtf
I’ll totally read this sometime :)
I HAVE NEVER DREAMPT OF A MAN SO HANDSOME I LITERALLY WOKE UP FROM SEEING HIS FACE
But when I woke up I don't remember his face anymore (just his smile) BUT!! Istg I know he had a face when I was still dreaming. So what happened was just another weird ass dream in my old high school days(I'm now in college) and I was chatting with my faceless friend, then her "friends" came up to us to say hi, one sat beside her, the other 2 sandwich me. I first looked at the guy with a beani and he was cute. But then the other guy put his arms around MY WAIST so I was about to scream at his face when I saw HIS FACE.
He's has the most perfect I've ever laid my eyes on—or at least that's what I remember thinking inside the dream. Cuz I only remembered his canines as he smirked at me then laughed I stared at his face for like 4-5 seconds then I woke up from the shock. My heart was also beating uncontrollably when I woke up. Well, that's all I just hope I can dream of him again cuz I don't need rl men, thank you.
so I first tried the mbti personality test around 2018 whe I was in 10th grade and the result was INTP, and I tried again after 2 years cuz I thought maybe I changed but no it's still the same even when I think I answered some questions differently from the first try. Then I tried again after 3 months after that.
And I tried again today and the answer is still the same, idk if it's accurate tho cuz my friend said hers changed after retaking it.
rlly depends on the person for example I had no major character development so im still INTJ since the last time I took it which was like 3days ago. fyi I took it like 18 times over the last 3-4 years because of my teachers
Mine is different every time I take it. I gave up over a year ago and just stuck with the last result I got because it seemed pretty accurate to my personality.
Hi I just wanna ask if anyone knew the title of this action manhwa I used to read before!
I don't remember much but the mc is a girl, she has I think a light brown hair? and she's in around high school or shs. The plot is like she can see the future?? or maybe something like supernatural sight where because of this her classmates thinks she's weird or something.
Then an accident happened and it was something like an alien worm where before it died it laid its eggs on the students it killed. That's all I remember sorry
I don't understand stories where after the mc gets molested, sexual harassed, or even attempted rape then get rescued by the ml, they'd fuck while calling it "comforting"
Same especially when the sa happens then later on the mc brushes it off as if it never happend. Essentially especially when the ml commits the act
Yesss !!!
THIS has been bothering me for a LONG time.
Like u just rescued a person from being sexually assaulted And instead of taking them to a hospital to receive professional help or to a police station to report the culprit.
You fuck with them to comfort them??
Nobody in their Right mind WOULD DO THAT.
Even if the victim asks for it. YOU SHOULDN'T Like what kind of logic is that??
And the thing that irritates me is when the mc "forgives" them or the author makes them forgets the incident and move on as if nothing has happened .
Like the authors will do anything.ANYTHING in order to not let the characters have a normal conversation EVEN WHEN THEY'RE LITERALLY AN ADULT.
It is so unrealistic how Rape and sa are portrayed.
idgaf on the fact that its fiction. Coz Fictional or not its still illogical.
Like there is definetly something wrong with these Authors.
I have 2 things to say to this
1 : why look for logics in fiction u dont care thats its fiction, fiction or not its still illogical? Because its fiction its illogical in fiction cars can fly humans have powers, where is the logic in that.
2: unrealistic, ill admit they are some fiction that are very much realistic and logical but those are a different category. Some people enjoy fiction because its not real , unrealistic. An escape from reality .
Side note : fiction was never meant to be logical or realistic a real person would never act the a way person in an anime or manga would.
I do not agree nor disagree the way in which bl author showcase mental health and r*pe
The manga that traumatized me the most is Harada's work called "Nii-chan" good thing they removed it
Is MangaGo at war with shota or something? Why would they remove Nii-chan? It was legit good???
yeah they are lol
Nah, cuz someone might report it. A lot of people hates pedophilia that's why. Tbh the ending was good, and sad cuz from what I remember the kid who was groomed made a disturbing face at the end.
But still why a 4 yrs old I'm a bit sensitive cuz my cousin who was 3 was also groomed and almost raped but I've read the manga before that accident happened irl. My cousin is a boy, too.
I'm so sorry that happened. I just really liked Nii-chan specifically because of how raw it was. From my limited experience with shota, I know that most works romanticize what is going on, and Harada going "This shit's fucked" was a breath of fresh air.
But I guess they are trying to sanitize the site.
I'm surprised y'all keep in touch with the series that traumatized you. I straight out cancel on my memory the title, story of the most messed up manga I've read. I don't even dare checking it out again.
I can only say if Niichan is removed I hope they check the shoujo's section too that romantize pedophilia and r*pe. Like the most horrid child groom story I read was a "shoujo". Niichan pale in comparison.
Nii-chan does show what it's like. We're a survivor of CSA, and honestly? Loving your abuser is common. While I hate most Shota or lolicon. Sometimes, the right person can make it good. Nii-chan is a great example of tact about a serious topic as pedophile.
~ Urah
Actually I've forgotten about it but my friend wanted to traumatized his friend so he's been asking for recommendations of mangakas that has disgusting or traumatizing plot lmao, and since I'm kind I gave him a lot
This is a sad fact omg but idk if it's pretty common since I've always escaped those type of situations, like how my aunt's husband molested me as a kid and I knew I had to leave that place cuz he was getting more and more aggressive, I went and gave all excuses I could find just to leave that fucking place, and the maniac has a gun so it's even more dangerous. And what I hate is that my father is till friends with that asshole, couldn't expect more to a guy who neglects his child for his mistress.
Omg there was a viral tiktok edit of that manga that incised me. I love disgusting and creepy stories, but genuinely that was just statight up ass. When I say I like gross stuff I mean like horror/thrillers with moderate gore not p3d0fillia. Yk? Also the fact that the MC stays with the P3d0 is just.... UGHHH I wish I could take back ever reading that
and the fact that the pedo was also a victim of pedophilia
Me too I love gorey, thrill, cannibalism, murder, creepy, ect. Specially murder documentaries, or true story horror movies.
I learned in my psychology classes in college that most pedos are victims of pedophilia, and usually people molested as children were abused by either family members or people close to their family that the children trusted. Fucking bastards, but it's all a vicious cycle.
It's really sad to think people do this to children specially parents, I mean how could you rape your own child? Fucking psychos
I learned today that my little nephew, who is incredibly cute, was traumatized badly by a fellow student when he was in school last year. The kid was obviously a victim of abuse, because he was experimenting with spanking and grabbing crotches. My nephew didn't know how to express that he was feeling really uncomfortable, and he was anxious all summer saying to my sister (his mom), "I'm worried, what if Trevor is in my class next year again?" (Trevor = abused kid spanking my nephew)
I mean, his behavior was modeled on some asshole pedo who was using and/or demonstrating kinky shit on/in front of a child that's only 7 years old or even younger, since we have no idea when the abuse began. WHAT IN THE FLYING FUCK is going on in that pitiful kid's family????
But what scared the shit out of me is that Trevor is in my nephew's class again this year! My sister called the teacher and met with the principal but tbh, if it were my kid and not my nephew, I'd move him to a totally different school...in another time zone for christsake.
Pedos don't even go to jail for that long most of the time, what is wrong with our fucking society?
Jesus christ, it seems like pedophilia has some kind of pattern happening in my family...I posted how my nephew was traumatized by an abused student in his class. Something even worse happened to my cousin. She was raped by her dad, that asshole I'll never be willing to call an uncle, but I will always refer to him as "the snake" because when I was a kid I had the impression he was like a crouching snake when I met him during family visits to my aunt's house. The snake who married by aunt was a vicious bastard who was like a professional criminal, that taught his sons and daughter how to steal and commit crime from an early age. My cousin that was raped by him was only 9 when it first happened, he did it in her bedroom when everyone was also home, including my aunt???? Like wtf? My aunt would then beat my cousins viciously with things like wire hangers, and my (female) cousin would volunteer to take the brunt of the beatings because she was worried about the safety of her brother. Fast forward to when my cousin who was raped by her dad grew up, she met another asshole and married him. He beat her during their marriage and raped her when she didn't want to have sex. Can you imagine getting raped first by your dad and then by your husband, two people that you're supposed to trust? And later she actually wanted to get back together with her asshole husband even after divorcing him... People that have been abused are really mentally not well at all...
I'm not entirely sure if I do have precognitive dreams or these are just delusions that were caused by my mental illness where I think I also am schizophrenic (cuz there are a lot of times where I suddenly "see" things that aren't there like looking at the ceiling and I see letters, lines, or objects seemed to follow my eyes, and how I sometimes hear voices) the thing is I'm self aware that these are not normal at least that's why I'm not in a mental institute.
Going back to my topic, I almost always remember my dreams but also always forgets them. Like when I know which character I'll get in a gatcha game cuz I saw it in my dream and I actually got them. Or when the instances called "deja vu" where apparently my brain thinks it saw it in a dream or it happened before but it actually doesn't. In my case it's like seeing a dream that happened years before it came true. Like I saw myself in an unfamiliar place where I know I've never been before, but with faceless people that felt familiar and close to me. Then years later I'll suddenly remembered that I "dreamed" of it before. My mind doesn't say "deja vu" tho, it just predicts the action and words of the ppl in that situation like I knew what was gonna happen next.
Of course I brushed it off as another of my delusions cuz I'm self aware that I'm mentally ill. Tho there are huge accidents that made me think otherwise like the death of my uncle where days prior to that I kept having nightmares and I couldn't breathe properly. It's like I'm going through a panic attack that I don't know the cause of. I also thought it was just asthma so I brushed it off at first, but after 3 days and I still couldn't breathe properly and my heartbeat is still panicking for no reason I went to the hospital to get checked. We went to multiple hospitals cuz the doctors doesn't know what was wrong with me. It wasn't asthma and it wasn't also covid. But when I was finally admitted and was given medicine to calm down, I was greeted by the news that my uncle passed away the same hour I was admitted—to be exact he was murdered. I also found out that the suspect was eyeing them for 3 days after the murder took place from my cousin. But who knows maybe it's another coincidence.
The same thing happened with my aunt from my mother's side, but less dramatic than my first experience. I also just brushed it off as coincidence cuz I drank coffee that time (I don't usually have palpitations whenever I drink coffee it's a rare occurrence)
Anyway I hope u enjoyed reading my story (there are still more "coincidences" but there are on the minor sides so I won't say more.
Dude go write this on the experience page instead bro you'll get more interactions
Either you are just lying (the dead uncle thing and the way you worded it sounds like a lie to me) or you need to visit a psychiatrist. There’s a reason why these kinds of experiences don’t happen as often to people who are mentally healthy lol
It's ok if u don't believe me, I didn't tell the full details of how he died cuz that's gonna be a whole lot of paragraphs and it's gonna make the story longer. Also I am mentally ill and unstable—I did say I sometimes hallucinates and hear voices. But I also did say that it might all be coincidences that it happened and I'm just dotting things inside of my head.