Oh my fucking God.... He fucking cheated on MC and expect to be loved by MC. What a shitty ML. Shit waste of my time. I never hated a ML this much. Fucking asshole.(╯°Д °)╯╧╧
I was not ready for it, it caught me off-guard. Did he really cheat????? Oh God I don't want to read further. For anyone who can answer it's around Chap 37 or 38. Fuck this shit. I am out
Spoilers maybe
But from the other comments it seems MC stopped loving ML even after years of redemption from ML, but MC was unable to get away from him because the MLs sister threatened him. So he is maybe just powerless but it's still heartbreaking, MC deserves a happy life with someone who loves him wholeheartedly. ML doesn't even deserve to touch the shadow of MC but MC is just unlucky to live with him even if it's a loveless arrangement from his end.
I don't know, it's just a speculation but I think the reason for the homophobic comments from ML is because he thinks it is not "normal" according to the world. I mean everyone says, including his parents, that if either one of them were a girl they would have been married (which doesn't necessarily mean they are homophobic but it does sound like a man and woman's relationship is normal) and ML wants to act normal. Maybe that is why he threw such comments and tries to control MC's feelings towards men also or (so he thinks). ML consciously tries to act normal, he does NOT want to look unusual according to others, he has built this "normal" personality of himself so people wouldn't notice his unusual behaviour, he doesn't want MC to leave him for his unusual behaviour so he acts like this to be perceived as normal. He haven't yet realised his feelings towards MC, hell he is jealous even about MC's "normal" relationship with a woman even though he thinks he wants MC to settle down and have a family. His subconscious knows he likes MC that is why he is jealous and possessive but he chalked it up as being a good friend. I mean in Ch. 34 he says "There are people like me in this world so I think there will be people who loves same sex". He compares his own abnormality with homosexuality and thinks both are abnormal which is not. So I want him to realise it is normal and ok to love the same sex and this is world is just simply a shitty place. Also I believe if he is not worried about his unusual behaviour he would have realised his feelings long before and would have confessed to MC because I think he doesn't genuinely worries about homosexuality. I believe he won't even care about what people would think if he is not desperate to hide is unusual behaviour.
Wow author, I know you won't read this but it is amazing, the character building of ML is so amazing even though I want to punch him in the face (๑•ㅂ•)و✧. Also I don't want MC to forgive ML easily but I am not sure how that will go. Let's see (⌒▽⌒).
English is not my first language so sorry for any mistakes. (=・ω・=)










Maybe it's just me but how come someone likes one person so much to the point of madness yet able to sleep around with so many people. Like how?? How can you even get turned on??? I mean I cannot fathom ever embracing someone else when I am hopelessly in love with that one person my whole life..... And I feel it so unfair that Inseo would get jealous that Hyeok would date someone else when he himself dated so many people. I mean if I am expecting/get jealous because the person I like is confessed to or dating then turn around and do the same, wouldn't I sound like an hypocrite?? I know he was 'distracting' himself and he has every right to move on but I just can't accept it that they end up together even after him trying to move on and sleeping around. This is just a point to note that also his love seems to be so toxic in the recent side stories though Hyeok did say he would accept it.... And one more thing is Inseo while confessing said he wanted it to be just the two of them all the time, how could he have achieved it by sleeping around and dating??
Maybe it's his complex character setup, that he planned to live his whole life this way by hiding his feelings so that Uke will stay by his side as friends then why didn't you do that?? Why did you kiss him and get together with him?? You didn't want to give him a lable because you were afraid about your feelings then why start it in the first place knowing he might hate you if he get to know your twisted feelings?? Why not start sleeping around after Hyeok and you broke up and pretended to be friends?? I mean wasn't everything back to how it were before? Shouldn't you then date so you can continue hiding your feelings? How come suddenly you realised you don't want to do it?? Why get jealous that Hyeok has his own life and his own interests when you got to have it all. But he was right about one thing, he is fucking selfish. Atleast he is aware of that much (╬ ̄皿 ̄)凸
It's not just this story but I have seen it again and again Seme just sleeping around when he is stressed/couldn't get Uke/afraid to confess his feelings or whatever reasons while Uke is a fucking virgin. There's so little story where the situation is reversed. It's acceptable for me if they have never liked the Uke and had their fun but how can you like someone and sleep around
I know I am repeating myself and maybe I am wrong because they are trying to move on and they have all the right to enjoy the life and not be hung up on their unrequited love blah blah blah but ughhh I just don't like it and get past it when they have intimate experiences with others while still liking their love interest.
Maybe I am very close minded or maybe I am demi-sexual I don't know. Also it can be attributed to the fact that I have seen it again and again that I hate it so much that in so many BLs it's the Semes who have all the experience while Ukes are pure virgin with not even a kiss under their belt.... Ughhh. The base line is you do not get to be jealous of your partners experiences when you yourself have even more experience than them.
P.S: It's totally not related to that story, but in real life it's really better to have a conversation with your partner if you feel bothered by their past. Also sorry for the rant or if I repeated things, that's just how frustrated I am☠