Nosequeponer's Things

Man, I feel like lately, bc I don't have that much to do, I've consumed every type of media that exists and I'm still so bored
I read manga, comic, books, fanfics, even twt AUs, I watch animes, live action series, watch cartoons and adult animation, watch live action and animated movies, same w series, watch youtube videos daily, listen to music constantly, listen to podcasts sometimes, play video games and watch gameplays, idk tiktoks counts¿?
I truly feel like I'm in so many fandoms to the point that I get overwhelmed by all content and fanart, so give me recommendations to overwhelmed myself more w more content wth

Has anyone read the novel "The vampire and his pleasant companions"???
It's js that, I really like the manga adaptation and I really wanna read the novel bc it js ended, but I really don't wanna cry if it has a bad ending, this is gonna sound really dumb, but like, I don't mind crying overall I js don't want the characters to have a bad ending
It's enough that I cry every day bc of my depression
Anyone?
I will read it ONLY if it has a good ending

Do you guys wanna see pictures of my cat?, bc there's so much rage baiting these days

Hi guys, in the middle of my suicidal episode and I was thinking, is it silly that one of my ONLY reasons for not kms is the fact that I wanna continue on watching series and reading books and js, consume every time of media I love?
Ts getting too seriously crazy I'm losing my mind

That's literally it, I don't wanna be negative, but lately I don't seem to enjoy watching videos, nor tiktoks, or reading
So I tried re watching series that I know I love and make me feel better, but that doesn't work either, I go outside, and I still feel, numb¿?
Idk what to do or if it will ever go away
What should I do